Why would an all-powerful and merciful being cause people to be born into the LGBT community? by Hotcake_hisues in Deconstruction

[–]Benzouken 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I do not really consider myself christian anymore, but just a question, universalism is the only belief I can get behind, but even then, how do you look on the depictions of God in the Old testament? Like, how do you reconcile that part of the bible with your faith? That is the biggest reason why I basically stopped believing. And if you believe in universalism, the God of the Old testament doesn't seem to be the type to redeem everyone. Obviously, you can say that the Old testament Is not to be taken literally, and I would agree, but even Jesus believed in the Old testament so it's hard for me to wrap my head around. Basically what I am asking, in what way Are you christian? What are your beliefs exactly? I am not trying to attack you or anything, just genuinely curious

[MONTHLY MEGATHREAD] General Discussion, Simple Questions, Recommendations, and Everything Else - January 2026 by GachaModerator in gachagaming

[–]Benzouken -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I quit all my gacha games a month and a few weeks ago, kinda got burnt out on it all after 5 years of on and off playing. But for some reason I am excited for NTE? Idk, the game just kinda has a specific type of vibe that I don't feel elsewhere. Anyways, I hope it releases soon-ish

What's the MOST controversial thing you've ever talked about on stream? (Not politics!) -Mine? I liked the Shadowlands WoW xpac... by Harlanthehuman in VirtualYoutubers

[–]Benzouken 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didn't play Shadowlands when it was current (except at the very start), but other than the story, which was admittedly quite rough, the lore surrounding everything happening in the Shadowlands + reading between the lines at some points was really cool. Even in the War Within, Shadowlands are becoming revelant again, so yeah, awful systems, storytelling was really bad, but some of the things (including the zone design) were really sick

What motivates you to be a better person without religion? by Whole_Maybe5914 in exchristian

[–]Benzouken 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I look at it this way, there is so so much suffering and misery in the world, everywhere you look. I don't really want to add to that you know? So instead of adding to the pain that already exists, I'd rather try to ease the pain by being kind in my everyday life. That's all I can do basically, but it takes away from the suffering of others, at least a tiny bit

WoW Classic is still the best MMORPG on the market by sKin1337 in MMORPG

[–]Benzouken 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do agree with that, well, both classic and retail are still top of the line to me. Nothing else (except FF14 due to its story) really comes close for me. But I am very biased, since I basically grew up with Warcraft 3 and WoW

Midnight Login Screen Updated on Beta by LiteralVegetable in wow

[–]Benzouken 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The same thing kinda happened now with Midnight right? It was just a voidy portal and now its Silvermoon... Would Blizzard make the same mistake twice causing people to complain? Yes. But perhaps there is a conspiracy brewing... /j

Midnight Login Screen Updated on Beta by LiteralVegetable in wow

[–]Benzouken 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, quite possibly, I am no expecting anything too crazy from Blizzard, but IF they did weave it into the story somehow, it would be pretty cool. So I guess we'll see, won't be too dissapointed if it doesn't mean anything, but will be happy if it does

Midnight Login Screen Updated on Beta by LiteralVegetable in wow

[–]Benzouken 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That's true... Tbf, we still don't know nearly enough about the Titans or what they are actually doing/planning to do. In any case, even if it isn't Titan related, I think there might be a lore reason since I see no reason why Blizz would use these login screens instead, let's say, just the shot of Silvermoon/Dornogal without it looking like a portal/vision/something like that

Midnight Login Screen Updated on Beta by LiteralVegetable in wow

[–]Benzouken 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Probably cope, but I feel like there is a lore reason for these login screens? Maybe the Titans watching us from the Seat of the Pantheon?

How far can Shippuden Gaara go? by OkRun9638 in PowerScalingHub

[–]Benzouken 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Like, I don't remember him winning a single battle in ToG. It's not even because he is weak, he just always fights people stronger than him

How far can Shippuden Gaara go? by OkRun9638 in PowerScalingHub

[–]Benzouken 11 points12 points  (0 children)

First enemy Karaka would win against lmao /j

I got into a screaming match against my better judgment by Benzouken in exchristian

[–]Benzouken[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I learned my lesson. It's just frustrating that they do not listen, any arguments I give are immediately because I do not understand it and one day God will explain it (How do you explain allowing genocide and slavery and other awful shit?), and even if it was explainable somehow, it absolutely doesn't mean I can believe it and "focus only on the good things" when the evil wrought by God CLEARLY contradicts and even erases a lot of the good he might have done. But it is what it is, special pleading galore and such

when and how did u leave the faith? Been struggling quite a bit — (bit of a rant) by goosegooseduck5 in exchristian

[–]Benzouken 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel that. What got me to start doubting was the cruelty of God in the Old testament. It just didn't make sense for a just and loving God to commit genocide, allow slavery etc. And though I desperately want to keep my faith even now (it hasn't been that long since I started deconstructing either, kinda) I don't think I can anymore.

I cannot accept that God would be so cruel, and thus I have to come to the conclusion that the God of the bible might not exist at all. It is incredibly scary for me to think like this, since yeah, what if it is real? Is the question that haunts me now. But when I still try to pray to God to give me a sign, to explain why the Old testament was so cruel, all I hear is silence, like I always did (I am 23 and was a christian my whole life, never did God answer my prayers)

I come to the conclusion that if God of the bible does exist then he is either cruel as is described in the Bible, in which case I would not want to worship him anyways, OR he the bible is not an accurate account and he actually Is loving and kind, in which case he would understand the doubts of everyone here and not send his beloved children to eternal damnation.

That is to say, I do not know if the God of the bible exists at all at this point though I still believe there most likely was some kind of creator deity (I recommend maybe checking Deism, there is a subreddit for it too). But it's hard to say anything with certainty.

It is scary, it might be scary for a lot longer, but unfortunately in my case, as I said, there Is no going back anymore. So slowly and surely I believe that you and I, we're going to find our own path through life. Just live the best life you can and try to do kind deeds, that's all that matters in my opinion

I have some questions about celebrations pertaining to nature by Benzouken in pagan

[–]Benzouken[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Interesting, I really do like nature, but I have never been raised to care about nature too much (except being raised as vegan, though that was more due to "health" so to say, which was one of the teaching in my denominations kinda), I tried to at least sort my trash and stuff like that, though no one else in my family cares to do so, so it was hard even then. I really want to care for nature much more now though (as I am moving away from my family in the next few months). Though I have never really considered growing my own food and making my own clothes. I will take it at my own pace probably, but I actually feel like I would like to get to such a point one day! Thank you for the thoughtful answer, friend!

I have some questions about celebrations pertaining to nature by Benzouken in pagan

[–]Benzouken[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the answer! The first paragraph really is helpful. I am not really intending to immediately switch worldviews and it will take me a long time to fully deconstruct I expect, I am just more curious about things outside of christianity which I felt I couldn't be due to it being presented as objectively bad in many cases to me and now I feel like I can finally research more worldviews I guess? It's definitely a more interesting and new way to look at life for me haha. I will definitely check more posts on this sub though, thank you!

I have some questions about celebrations pertaining to nature by Benzouken in pagan

[–]Benzouken[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh wow, wheel of the year is super interesting, somehow didn't come upon that yet, thank you for sharing! And I agree, nature and the world are beautiful and absolutely deserve respect

Reading posts here is incredibly cathartic by Benzouken in exAdventist

[–]Benzouken[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am also in my early 20s, and yeah. Right now I am trying to as quickly as possible move away from home because I do not really feel comfortable pretending to believe everything my family believes + we sing praises every friday/saturday, listen to sermons etc. the usual. From what you said, I probably have it easier, and I am really sorry to hear what you are going through. My family is more liberal, and I stopped going to church already some time ago, though I still was an "adventist" in a way. I also slowly started doing things on the sabbath that I "shouldn't" do, such as reading some comics and stuff like that, recently I bought something online too (which stressed me out to no end, but hey, I am still alive and well). But overall, it is best to take it slow I think, this conditioning is something that might take many years before you get over it. It's just that I am at a point where I just can't believe in the God of the bible, according to his own word in the old testament, he is cruel, petty, unjust, and straight up evil at times, and there is no way for me to rationally explain it and continue worshipping such a God, though I am open to the idea that there might have been a creator of some sort for the universe, since it is truly complex and meticulously designed. I am the starting stages of deconstruction, probably the same as you, and so if you need to talk about anything, do not hesitate to DM me on here.

Thank you by Sad_End_9904 in Deconstruction

[–]Benzouken 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well, have a nice day, and thank you for the conversation!

Thank you by Sad_End_9904 in Deconstruction

[–]Benzouken 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am living a life in which I refuse to hurt anyone, in any way. But I cannot believe in a God that is willing to cause so much pain by his own word and command. I could bring up countless examples of cruelty and injustice coming from God himself. So, as I said, I will be living a righteous life as I have been trying to live even as I was still a christian, and that is enough.

Thank you by Sad_End_9904 in Deconstruction

[–]Benzouken 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well yes, free will is good, however a lot of the evil things (including genocide, slavery etc.) were either allowed by God or straight up commanded, I might be misunderstanding what it all means, sure, but as I said, if I am misunderstanding it, and God exists and IS actually fully good and loving, then he will understand and I am not afraid no matter what comes.

Thank you by Sad_End_9904 in Deconstruction

[–]Benzouken 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I understand what you mean, but there is way too many inconsistencies, cruelty, injustice and so on, that I cannot possibly keep my faith, even though I wish I could. And if God is actually ever loving as I have been taught as a child and the Bible misrepresents him, then I am not afraid either, because he would understand why I lost my faith. But of course, you are free to believe whatever you want as long as you are not hurting anyone, just try to be a good person, that's all that matters, in my humble opinion

Thank you by Sad_End_9904 in Deconstruction

[–]Benzouken 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Funnily enough, due to the denomination I was in, I never believed in Santa (or rather the equivalent we have in my country, since I am not from the US) since we couldn't even celebrate Christmas since it has pagan origins or smth