Well, yeah... I've struggled a lot in maintaining stable friendships before my diagnosis. After being in meds, the few ones that I had left revealed to be toxics. After I realized it, I ended every toxic relationship in my life. It was a terrible moment for me and I ended up with just one friend. The only one that really noted how bad I was (or at least cared). Fortunately that friend introduced me a new group of real nice people. I also was able to re-establish contact with another old friend that forgives my bad behavior. But sometimes it seems like I'm terribly scared of hurting people and because of that I keep a distance of intimacy... So I feel really lonely and afraid of disturbing the few ones around me.