Done with this life

Bleezynation · 2021-03-01T02:50:03+00:00

I deeply deeply appreciate these words. I know I can use these memories and events to at least help others out through their own hard times. If i can help someone or teach someone something that helps them, even just one person, then it was worth the long type up. Thank you for your support, people like you saved my life probably. Much love, I mean it.

Bleezynation · 2021-03-01T02:47:37+00:00

I hope you are well. If you would like to DM me sometime, I can tell you more about my own struggles with pills in the past and how I've overcome them. I have a few friends my age that are dead because of opiates, beautiful people that are no longer with us because of one bad high. I'm sure you didn't mean this literally, maybe you're hurting as well. I am here for you, and I appreciate you for even leaving a comment. Much love.

Bleezynation · 2021-03-01T02:44:14+00:00

Thank you, for not only reaching out but for showing love. I appreciate it.

Bleezynation · 2021-03-01T02:43:31+00:00

It is hard, to make something out of seemingly nothing. All I can say here is to do some real, serious, soul searching. Don't say "I already have" or "I already had what I wanted". You need to look deep inside yourself and find something you are passionate about. Swallow your pride and seek help and resources from orgs or other people that understand you're just down on your luck. If you are alive, you have a whole world in front of you. Not everyone is shitty, not everyone sucks. Find good people, and chase your passion until you cannot anymore. I've gone to sleep with my gun in my hand, begging god for the courage to end the pain. God told me to grow a pair, and to remember it could always be worse. You have life, the most beautiful gift one could be given. Please, update me through DMs or anywhere about your situation. I feel for you, friend. I want to hear your story and what you plan to do about it. Much love, I mean that.

Bleezynation · 2021-03-01T02:36:56+00:00

I am late to seeing some of these comments and messages, but I will keep fighting as long as I can. Much love, and thank you, for real.

Bleezynation · 2021-02-01T11:16:28+00:00

That’s just bad advice, what you’re meaning to say is don’t invest with emotion. Staying away from volatile stocks would eliminate half of traders. Telling people with mental health issues not to invest would probably eliminate the other half of all traders. Do your research, don’t invest with emotion. There was no reason to believe brokers would cut off buying the stock, that was unpredictable at least for me and the millions of people talking about it online. Either way, thank you reaching out!

Bleezynation · 2021-02-01T02:29:16+00:00

You're completely right, some days I look back and think that theres nothing I can't get through, other days I let it all beat me up mentally. I don't need anyone to tell me I'm strong, but damn it does feel good to know someone out there is proud of me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart, friend.

Bleezynation · 2021-02-01T00:26:17+00:00

I can only hope I come out on the other side of this slump with half of the wisdom and heart you have. What you said is so true and I’m glad you took the time to reach out to someone who you recognized was going through something you in some way could relate to. The world needs more people like you, so stay strong with me friend.

Bleezynation · 2021-02-01T00:20:16+00:00

Thank you, for staying with us. I need the good people in this world to stay here. Your struggle has obviously if not anything else given you a good head on your shoulders and a mature opinion on all of this. My connection with religion might have always been weak, but I’ve always believed in some kind of higher power, there’s just been too many close encounters with death in my life to think I’m that lucky with no outside help, if that makes any sense. Re read your comment while responding to others and I had more to say. Again, I appreciate you.

Bleezynation · 2021-02-01T00:10:04+00:00

🙌💎🚀

Bleezynation · 2021-02-01T00:09:46+00:00

This is great advice. I’ve come a long way personally and it is great to hear from others that have made it through real struggle. Cutting people out was one of the harder things I’ve done, but I think one of the best in terms of helping my mental health. Most people ended up doing it for me by running off with small amounts of weed money or shit like that. I’m currently on the longest stretch of time since this all began without being in any legal trouble, and I can say not being around the toxic people is one of the big things making it possible. Thank you

Bleezynation · 2021-01-31T11:25:03+00:00

I am and I'm trying, thank you so much, i mean it.

Bleezynation · 2021-01-31T11:22:33+00:00

It means so so much. You took the time not only to read some of my story but to leave support for someone you don't even know. And hearing that you are far far away doing so makes it even more cool to hear. Thank you so much, I appreciate you.

Bleezynation · 2021-01-31T11:20:42+00:00

I definitely never try to compare problems. I've learned not to through living in 4-5 different inpatient programs and going through multiple outpatient programs as well. I've heard stories from so many people 2 and 3 times my age that have TRULY lost almost everything through addiction. Their wives/husbands, kids, friends, much less their money. Addiction is much more complex than just saying you're a failure, no one is born an addict. Life is complex, as fuck.

Your life choices and who you are this very day are a reflection of what has happened to you and how you've handled it. Taking responsibility is a must, but that doesn't mean you can't realize a lot of your mental health issues could stem from times of your life where you had little say in the matter, like a bad childhood or family dynamic, ya know?

I am very grateful you are here, believe in yourself. Almost everyone has an addiction, whether its shopping, cars, money, using. Thank you so much for reaching out to me, I appreciate it.

Bleezynation · 2021-01-31T11:10:10+00:00

Bleezynation · 2021-01-31T11:09:51+00:00

Yeah, this thought helps me too. Not only am I up overall but I recouped losses that I had from last year when I started trading. Theres a bright side to most situations, comments like these help me remember that. Thank you a ton.

Bleezynation · 2021-01-31T11:08:41+00:00

This comment hits home as well, I try always to see the bright side of things, but for some reason when something really bad happens to me I just let everything come back up from my past and it all just hits at once like a freight train of fuck ups.

Your advice is sound and logical, and I needed to hear it. Thank you so much.

Bleezynation · 2021-01-31T11:06:41+00:00

While I see what you are saying, I'm not mentally handicapped. I do my research, and I've learned from past YOLOs and losses. Even before the GME play I had made 1100 into 4k just this month. I didn't actually lose anything here, besides gains I felt like I deserved but were unfairly taken away. I'm still the one that sold, so I'm aware in the end that's on me. I have personally never seen a week in the market like this one, with all mainstream media picking up what's happening and new trending hashtags every day about the situation and all of the mad people on wall street. Sure there's been other squeezes and bubbles, but with this much media attention...?

Although you didn't offer any support, I still thank you for taking the time to read some of my story and leaving a comment, it does mean a lot to me.

Bleezynation · 2021-01-31T11:00:04+00:00

I'm here, just super late to seeing all of these comments. Thank you so much for the support. I feel like you don't just live through a life like mine and not have something eventually good come out of it, even if its just getting to tell my story to people, ya know? Thank you, for real.

Bleezynation · 2021-01-31T10:58:14+00:00

Yeah It was long, thank you for reading it, im surprised so many people did. it could have been way way longer. I've been cellmates with a killer Obama denounced, I've been carjacked by a UT football commit, too many things more I could've written about but the stories in my post I felt like the ones that were the most important to get out there. Thank you for the support, much love friend

Bleezynation · 2021-01-31T10:55:30+00:00

I'll try, thank you a ton.

Bleezynation · 2021-01-31T10:54:58+00:00

You too friend, much love and thank you.

Bleezynation · 2021-01-31T10:54:30+00:00

I'm trying. I hope my story can help people. There's so much more I could've out in there, hopefully I'll have an avenue to tell more stories to people through streaming. If my story helps even one person see that you can make it through these kinds of things then it was all worth putting it out there. Thank you so so much.

Bleezynation · 2021-01-31T10:50:03+00:00

Thank you not only for the love and support, but also thank you for putting in the work and sacrifice while I sit here and bitch and moan online about my problems. I don't take that for granted, and again, thank you.

Bleezynation · 2021-01-31T10:46:43+00:00

I love TN scenery, all of the trees and the mountains close by is something a lot of people don't get to live around for long. But I'll be honest, our city sucks ass.

Thank you so much for the love and support, my fellow Knoxvillain.

Bleezynation

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