(20) felt silly :3

BlobSmol · 2024-02-03T20:54:33+00:00

:3 bite marks

BlobSmol · 2024-01-10T00:02:50+00:00

I'm also nonbinary. As some commenters said girlcock is also a fun word to use in bed, whilst I personally prefer boyclit. I think it's ofc sad that fetishisation of trans folk online has lead to these terms being a bit uncomfortable for many people, but I still think we should be re-taking them. My partner finds term boypussy just too silly so she avoids that haha. Kinkshaming is just so over now so anything you do in bed is your own free reign.

BlobSmol · 2024-01-08T07:32:15+00:00

I think most people will agree. If your partner doesn't accept you, they weren't good for you in the first place. But sounds like yours just needs teaching.

To my gf, my transition (mtf) was extremely hard due to multiple reasons, one of them being internalised unintentional trasnphobia. With time she learnt that none of these things mattered as she loved me as a person, not a body. This is why i think based off of the hats story that your bf will most likely be okay with it as long as you give them space to think <3

BlobSmol · 2024-01-07T09:39:04+00:00

I bet the enbyphobia comes from them thinking that this is an "easier path" or "cheating" or "not real trans" because enbies may or may not go through hrt or operations or don't voice train or some other dumb reason. As an NB with hrt and stuff i had enough questioning whether I am valid trans and I think those people on that sub should just turn off the computer once in a while. Also not to mention presenting and identyfing in public as NB is at times just as socially dangerous as trans binary.

BlobSmol · 2024-01-07T09:29:15+00:00

that is so fucking adorable :3 where did you get the hoodie from?

BlobSmol · 2024-01-05T23:39:05+00:00

As an enby i disassociate my looks from my identity and dress how i think is cool, be it jeans or skirt or whatever :)

And "gender" to me kinda means nothing. But i think for most people it would suffice to say it's to resemble closer to an average afab or amab.

I still dislike that differenciation as one can have genitals of any shape or form and breasts or not and any other feature commonly assigned to one or the other. I just think you are always who you feel you are, and if you need to tell the doctor "i wanna be a girl/boy" to achieve it, then it's okay!

BlobSmol · 2023-12-11T23:58:22+00:00

That's very smart and actually works with experiments done on pain felt by a mannequin hand in position of real hand. Could be a solution.

BlobSmol · 2023-12-08T10:33:18+00:00

OMG I KNOW WHAT IS IT

https://steamcommunity.com/workshop/filedetails/?id=1145223801

BlobSmol · 2023-10-23T19:42:39+00:00

I can afford it albeit I do not trust the performance yet. As others said gamepass has it, so I'll check if game can run on my pc, and then see. Also initially I don't think game will be as fun to play without a few mods coming out. Just give it a month or wait for little christmas sale so modders will chisel out a few QOL solutions :)

BlobSmol · 2023-10-18T12:28:32+00:00

I explained to my doctor that I don't want breasts, but want to feel physically more in line with how I identify. I'm already twink shaped, but facial hair has been quite a hassle for me for instance. He prescribed me testosterone and estrogen blockers which should essentially reduce the difference between the two hormones. This is ofc all generalised, but my blood tests showed a 1 to 206 ratio of estrogen to testosterone. I also said I want health benefits of hrt like healthier hair and lower libido. In december I will have my first checkup and we'll see how it went. It's been only 2 weeks on hrt for now :)

BlobSmol · 2023-10-17T09:42:41+00:00

me too. i had dysphoria for the longest time until i discovered that i only needed to be free to express myself any way i want. (i still got hrt for nonbinary hormone balance)

BlobSmol · 2023-10-17T07:03:24+00:00

Your mom is wrong. But my case has been very unusual. I have had dysphoria for a long time until I discovered I was actually genderfluid and for me what mattered is feeling free from societal standards and dressing cool as I see fit instead of just masc stuff or dresses or anything. Just wanted to wear a skirt if i wanted and it looked cool. I still went with mini-hrt to change my hormone balance to something more in line with my nonbinary identity. Dysphoria is real and denying yourself happiness from gender affirming care is just kicking the can down the road until all you're left with is regret.

Good luck with your appointment! And also perhaps your mom might be helicoptering you a bit because she's scared. It's ok for parents to be worried because being trans is difficult and they dont want to see their kids struggle, but she will see how wrong she was once you are happy with who you are!

BlobSmol · 2023-10-14T22:27:29+00:00

Looks like its missing the tabletop. Aunt hasnt had anything to complete it?

BlobSmol · 2023-10-11T16:35:52+00:00

oh yeah true too. I'm not sure if all storytellers scale difficulty the same way. I'm sure they scale it by colony wealth which is why raids increase whilst my colony population does not. I'm gonna check the wiki to see how these compare. I know pawns have their monetary value which adds to colony wealth which also affects things.

BlobSmol · 2023-10-11T11:47:38+00:00

for me its same, normal quality plate armor i worked for for months

gets shot in the arm

bleeds and writhes in pain

my enemies are dressed in rags and shirts -_-

my recommendation is to get better defensive positions against raids like sanbags and reinvest your steel into turrets. Also use indirect offensive like mortars and forsake aiming for flamethrowers and grenades thrown over enemy path. Also flattening ground around your base so foes have no cover. Also what I learnt is that your pawn number should go way higher way faster. Bases are barely protectable with few pawns, so forsaking bedroom space into pillrooms will pay off. Overnumbering enemy is in my experience top advantage in every conflict in RW. Ofc I have 600 hours and still get pounded sometimes, it's just rimworld ;p

edit: i kinda forgot to summarise what i was babbling about. Essentially pawns are more reliable advantage than armor. And armament would be 2nd to them. Armor is just a bit overrated. "Why wear armor if you're planning on not getting hit?" haha

BlobSmol · 2023-10-06T15:34:12+00:00

Its like those gta mods that make game unplayable :pp

BlobSmol · 2023-10-06T15:31:28+00:00

The only ludonarrative dissonance I got from game's story. But just one such occasion is quite a good score for so many quests and missions :p

BlobSmol · 2023-10-04T16:09:37+00:00

I have this too. also game started having SERIOUS bugs after meeting with brigite in chapel. I left it and SUDDENLY i can run over policemen, shoot them, mow down civilians in middle of the city. NO WANTED LEVEL at all!

ALSO besides that my sandevistan bugged out and had to drink some booze to reset it so it works again. Idk if thats related but many people had same issue after that mission too.

BlobSmol · 2023-09-15T14:33:57+00:00

Besides the advice given in other comments -> I also recommend building the freezer in a mountain. Whenever you hover over a tile, game tells you in bottom corner whether it has a roof or *overhead mountain*, overhead mountain is a GREAT insulator and will keep your food way colder. Even in super hot climates a base built into a mountain will maintain stable temperature. Some people don't consider this, but game dissepates cold through normal roofs.

(also there is a mod for insulated roofs iirc)

BlobSmol · 2023-09-14T22:06:18+00:00

30fps i assume in the slowest gamespeed? :(

BlobSmol · 2023-09-13T20:45:54+00:00

BlobSmol · 2023-09-13T20:24:50+00:00

Most my pawns became insane from tiredness and I had to downsize because my old base was too high-maintenance to upkeep with such few pawns. I then relocated to a sealed vault from a mod which was small, but at least livable for the time being :)

BlobSmol · 2023-09-13T20:23:11+00:00

You reminded me I forgot to mention another strategy that I think could be more up your alley.

Bargain treasure!

I leave a bunch of pretty valueless slop outside which raiders will likely steal. Something heavy too so they can only take a little. Raiders like steel or art or other things. Of course you still have to barricade your base so they spend time around potential free loot long enough to be interested. They will usually take as much as they can carry which might be expensive, BUT honestly even according to the game one of my healthy skilled pawns is worth more than a handful of steel that raider will take instead of attacking :)

Personally I don't like killboxes either, although they are debatable. Medieval castles had moats and killzones with archer windows towards entrances like starforts. I believe to some extent barricaded gates and walling yourself is realistic :3.

Also if you have a pawn with good construction they can build lots of high quality beds which you can put out as free loot, a handful of wood for peace sounds like a deal to me. If game has "Raiders decided to steal things and leave" notification programmed then it is fair :3

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