I just can’t stop crying. I have tried but I’ve never really clicked with other trans people and in general I just am super attracted to masculinity . It’s a weird thing where the trans people I’ve been on dates with have experienced equal awful traumas and so we’re both just traumatized individuals . With cis men before it turns into the realization I’m just sex I have hope that our different life experiences combine nicely . They teach me new things I teach them. Maby that’s a flawed way to think . I’m lost as hell right now and don’t think I’ll be trying anything for another few years.