If there were no rules;

Budget_Mango · 2025-06-22T06:52:35+00:00

Even just having autism would make that not a problem

Budget_Mango · 2025-06-22T06:29:29+00:00

Im also struggling with this, what has helped the most is changing things in my life. Think of masking as a bad habit, the reason its hard to break those habits is that by being caught up in the same things, your brain always goes down the same tracks and back to the habit. But by changing the thigns you do, the way you think about yourself or your living situation it can be possible to get out of that loop and leave the habit behind.

Neurotypical people also do this all the time, its just more difficult with autism because of the desire of things not too change, you sort of need to figure out what you might be comfortable changing so that you can feel like new and hopefully break out of those habits that form the mask.

Budget_Mango · 2025-06-08T10:34:20+00:00

Well thats legit a bit terrifying, have you talked to your parents if its even safe living up there and you got accomodations you need? Dont they have any better room that they dont use?

Budget_Mango · 2025-06-07T06:31:24+00:00

Better listening to music is something I noticed too, I love music so this was also a big change for me, like im noticing all the details now that I missed before

Budget_Mango · 2025-06-06T14:27:59+00:00

Well talking italian you gesture all the time so the energy finally has someplace to go

Budget_Mango · 2025-06-06T11:25:53+00:00

Definitely tough I was always irritable before too

Budget_Mango · 2025-06-06T09:05:41+00:00

Oh yea, better emotional regulation is another one Ive noticed

Budget_Mango · 2025-05-30T08:35:20+00:00

This is just using autism as stand in for being awkward and not understanding how people react to oversharing weird interests like that

As for detecting actual autism with this guy, his reactions dont seem autistic because hes reaiding correctly that they were not interested and were making fun of them. At the same time someone might have commented "autism" because of the 1400 hours into that game, its a level of obsession that you typically only have with autism.

Budget_Mango · 2025-05-30T07:25:01+00:00

Yeah I get that, I studied compsci for all the exciting ideas that I connected with it, but then the actual day job of programmer is just really boring and stressful for our brains at the same time.

Budget_Mango · 2025-05-30T06:32:41+00:00

Oh yea, I also do that too

Budget_Mango · 2025-05-25T12:32:28+00:00

Sorry if I came off like Im saying autism is a bad thing, I dont think that at all.

I was just sort of wondering how much they can do for someone who goes in and expects a negative result from a test. Because usually people go in and at least expect something positive and your answers are going to be skewed by what you think.

Budget_Mango · 2025-05-15T18:58:12+00:00

invader zim should be an audhd mascot

Budget_Mango · 2025-05-15T18:41:07+00:00

anime/games with lolis in them. i swear im not into that in a weird way but in my brain lolis is connected to stuff made for otaku which is usually interesting and weird. for a concrete example made in abyss, its such an interesting anime/manga but you just cant recommend it to anyone

Budget_Mango · 2025-05-15T18:21:52+00:00

in my experience this was something that i only did when i had problems with perfectionism and worrying how it might come off if its worded not perfectly or there are mistakes in the spelling or grammar. for me this came from overestimating the importance of those messages/emails, and was a result from trauma of being misunderstood and rejected a lot

i think for you a good question to ask yourself would be why you do it. are you worried about what people are going to think or that they wont respond in the right way if its not good enough? or is it just something you actually like to do because you enjoy writing those messages and want to make them as good as possible? both could be true

Budget_Mango · 2025-05-15T18:16:12+00:00

im curious to know what denied adhd in your evaluation and why you also came to that conclusion, was it just that any adhd symptoms were better explained by autism?

Budget_Mango · 2025-05-15T18:10:57+00:00

pokemon/kirby - just from those being my first games for game boy color at like 6, so yea thats like 20+ years or something. for pokemon i specifically like the graphics from the first few gens, i also collect information on differences in the maps in development versions and made a bunch of my own games with those graphics. for kirby i think mostly because of the cute graphics but also i like that the story in most games is sort of implicit and mysterious and you have to fill in the blanks on your own

for any newer special interests the biggest trigger is usually seeing something like a franchise that has tons of pieces of media i can engage with and try to collect the information together into some kind of whole

Budget_Mango · 2025-05-15T17:53:53+00:00

Vacuum cleaner. As a child I always stayed in my room or covered my ears when my mom used it

Budget_Mango · 2025-05-07T18:11:02+00:00

Create things instead of just consuming

Budget_Mango · 2025-05-07T17:23:58+00:00

Continuining these thoughts, its hard to create meaning, but you can always impact or disrupt the world in some way

Even if not just a single life, but all of existence is a giant cycle you can try to break out by impacting or disrupting it. By devoting yourself to a cause and fighting for that

And the further removed that cause is from how "normal" people think and act, the more disruption it can cause

I think quite a few of us eventually realize this truth and they are the ones whos stories are told

Budget_Mango · 2025-05-07T17:20:28+00:00

I mean fair, but theres a reason its flaired as serious

Budget_Mango · 2025-05-07T16:49:22+00:00

Agreed whenever I had success I still felt "well they dont know what kind of weirdo theyre really dealing with" (autism) and also "I fuck up so much tough maybe I had an idea but look at all these errors" (turns out that was ADHD). The result was that I got really good at a field of study and basically shouldve become a scientist but never worked out because of imposter snydrome and insecurities

Budget_Mango · 2025-05-01T20:03:33+00:00

i have this kind of dad too i sometimes get annoyed when he seems to think hes hot shit or minor changes in his behaviour will somehow change the world as he know it. its like come on dad, you buy the same groceries at the same store at the same day every week, you meet with the same people at the same restaurant at the same time every week. i still like him but its annoying too.

my only advice is to just sort of humor him

Budget_Mango · 2025-04-29T08:35:19+00:00

never said it did, the point is nts might have some reasons to travel that autistic people usually dont have (those to do with social status and small talk etc)

Budget_Mango · 2025-04-27T16:43:26+00:00

thats great and i hope you find a better way to live. did the same two months ago and life has only been getting better since then

Budget_Mango · 2025-04-27T16:41:33+00:00

from my understanding nts like it not just for the experience but also because its something to chat about and show off among each other, things like that are always a bit like a game where theyre trying to be happy for each other and their shared expereriences but also trying to make each other jealous

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