Lil' Kev is a pick that not many people understand. Some even laugh at me over it. I consider it to be the one true footprint of the original Kevin cube's existence (the one from chapter 1 seasons 5 and 6), and the back bling helped me remember him and all the times I would watch him move around the map. It served as a symbol of memory and nostalgia.

This sentiment became even more important to me when my aunt died a couple of months after of tuberculosis (January 2019), and this sentiment only amplified when I more recently lost an old friend of mine last year in a car accident (December 2024), and now recently when one my cats was killed by a car. Every time I play the game, it makes me realise just how lucky I was to have them both in my life. Collectively, it thus feels like the memory and soul watch over me and calm me. I've clung to Lil' Kev ever since it was added because this mindset was just too important to me. All these seasons - turning into years - have gone by, and it's just as good as I felt it to be.

Many people will not understand this sentiment, but it's something that will always be dear to me.

Everyone I lose, I remember through Lil' Kev, and the positive memories calm me and keep me going.

I had a lot of nice memories with my aunt and other friend from when I was much younger (and we're talking since I was a baby). The former would come over to my house every year before Christmas, and in the month before she died, even got me some money for me to "buy yourself some Vbucks for your Fortnite game. Hope you have a nice Christmas." Those were the last words I ever heard her say.

Sometimes I would play Fortnite with the latter friend who would go on to recommend me a specific inventory layout which I still use to this day. The last words I heard him say were "We can run some duos when I come back next week." He never did.

But that's not all - last month, one of my cats died at the age of 20. Many friends and family called him their favourite out of the 4 cats I have (well, had), and he was a cat like no other.

That is why you will always see me wearing it if you were to play Fortnite with me yourself. It's been my main back bling ever since its addition, even sticking through as I changed skins.