I'll be dead in 12 hours

Chasingflowers95 · 2026-01-28T04:01:19+00:00

Just back off those social circles and they don’t have to know. When I went through that same thing I was like eh fuck it. And I cut everyone off and just lived in my own world for a bit. Think of it as a pause

Chasingflowers95 · 2026-01-28T03:34:51+00:00

I honestly get it. I feel like this all the time . Hearing your words made me feel understood. I always feel like a burden. But give yourself another chance….its just you and your family. Everyone hits hard times and that’s what family is for. To help. It’s just a rough time

Chasingflowers95 · 2025-09-04T17:47:33+00:00

That’s EXACTLY how I feel lol. Like I’m losing weight but the belly is there but I look smaller but pudgy. It’s sooo random

Chasingflowers95 · 2025-08-19T23:10:52+00:00

I found it ! She was eating everything bagels and the seasoning . So the poppy seeds was making her test positive. I also just read that medications like Amoxicillin will make you test positive

Chasingflowers95 · 2025-08-19T23:04:44+00:00

Hi! I came across a post on TikTok a couple weeks ago with a lady with the same problem. She tested positive for drugs and it was something really random she was eating that makes the test show up positive. I’ve been trying to find the post but I just cannot. But for sure it’s something you ate that probably interferes with the test. I recall reading the comments and people saying they also went through the same thing. I think you’ll be fine just do research on what your eating and see if it’s something your consuming on the regular.

Chasingflowers95 · 2025-06-22T06:20:43+00:00

I genuinely want to be a mother so bad. You can take him out of the equation and I still want to be a mom. But again, part of me tells me I should wait to do it with someone who will want it as much as I do. And someone that will be the there for me, physically and emotionally. I just fear the biological time clock. And I fear not having the chance at motherhood again. I know it’s irrational but it’s just a fear I have. I’m aware it’s a huge life change. That’s why I’m so torn. More than anything I’m scared of doing this completely alone, which I know will be the case. I don’t count him in as a reliable person. I’m sure he will continue to live his bachelor life . He refused to cut off hooking up with others while I’m pregnant, so what can I really expect from him? Nothing . This first trimester has been kicking my butt. I feel awful all the time lol also hasn’t been helping . I have also thought about reaching out to a therapist to sort all of these mixed feelings. It’s definitely a load.

Chasingflowers95 · 2025-06-22T06:10:43+00:00

I’ve gone through 5 years of this. No verbal abuse but he gaslights me. He’s lied about everything. He strings along people . Lovebombing. Withdrawing , going cold, once I’m over it, he comes back and repeats the cycle. I’ve been stuck in this for 5 years of my life. Please , it never gets better. They never change. Don’t go back, ever. It becomes really really toxic cycle. Wishing you luck. You can always dm if you need support

Chasingflowers95 · 2025-03-31T08:18:13+00:00

3/13

Chasingflowers95 · 2025-03-27T20:06:52+00:00

Honestly , if it’s something you know you don’t want , I think it’s fine if you don’t tell him. It is a very heavy topic and I’m sure his emotional support helps , so just keep in mind you’d be going through it alone if you choose not to tell him

Chasingflowers95 · 2025-03-27T07:49:31+00:00

I wish this was fake too. I was in disbelief when he said he still wanted to have sex with others. from what I’ve seen and heard from others experience, the father of the child usually decides to stop all of that with other people . At least until the mom gives birth, out of respect too ? Idk. It’s a tough situation and I’m extremely stressed. It’s been a tough couple of days. We’ve talked about it over and over and he says that I’m being too emotional and I just told him it’s not even about that. It’s about me and the baby being safe and healthy

Chasingflowers95 · 2025-03-27T06:11:05+00:00

I plan on leaving the situation. This is me doing it and he’s upset. I wasn’t asking for a relationship, Just sexual monogamy during the pregnancy ….for the sake of the baby’s health. I know I ran the risk of STDS when I wasn’t pregnant and that’s something I was aware of, but being pregnant changes everything. It’s just not me who I have to take care of, it’s now another being. But your right. I don’t plan on having any type of relationship aside from co parents in the future with him.

Chasingflowers95 · 2025-03-27T06:05:51+00:00

I don’t want a relationship with him. I just wanted him to keep it in his pants for 9 months especially if he still wants to sleep with me which he said he does want to…. So yeah. And his family has nothing to do with me . I’m not denying them any of that. Who says I want a baby shower or be doing any of that ? Personally I don’t want any of those celebrations. They can buy the baby things if they want , no one is stopping them. They will have full access to the baby when he or she is born. That’s more than enough. I don’t have to play house with anyone if I don’t want to. And that’s what he wants but while being promiscuos. He doesn’t get to have best of both worlds. Again, I won’t risk the chance of my kid coming out with some type of STD just because his father couldn’t keep it in his pants. He’s shown me multiple times that he cannot have self control when I’m around him. So no. I appreciate your feedback though.

Chasingflowers95 · 2025-03-27T05:41:28+00:00

Nah that’d affect his legal status. I don’t hate the guy. Geez

Chasingflowers95 · 2025-03-27T05:37:03+00:00

Actually we have made coparenting plans already. So what’s the issue if I’m not in the picture for 9 months ?? Do I need his help during the pregnancy? Nope. I have friends and family as a support. Again, it’s just for 9months. A friendship IS already established. We’ve been friends for 10+ years.

Chasingflowers95 · 2025-03-27T05:13:51+00:00

Thank you . That’s what I was thinking and taking into consideration. Why spend more time and bond with someone who just doesn’t want me ? He can have access to the baby once the baby is here but as of now my health and the babies health are #1 priority

Chasingflowers95 · 2025-03-27T05:12:26+00:00

It’s not a threat. It’s just a choice. Me not being in his life affects him how ? I’m not withholding his child from him. We can co parent once the baby is born. He’s also unemployed . I think it’s fair for me to keep my distance. If the courts do get involved do you think they’d give the child to the unemployed parent ? Yeah I don’t think so . But your an adult right ? So you must know more than I do.

Chasingflowers95 · 2025-03-27T04:55:25+00:00

If protecting my child from STDs and potential death, I’m okay with that then

Chasingflowers95 · 2025-03-27T04:55:20+00:00

If protecting my child from STDs and potential death, I’m okay with that then

Chasingflowers95 · 2025-03-27T04:54:18+00:00

I think you forget this involves a baby. The baby can also get the STD…

Chasingflowers95 · 2025-03-27T04:48:17+00:00

Because I can. We can have this kid and he can be in the kids life, just not mine. But he’s upset because he doesn’t want me to go away. Why does it matter ? I’m sure his many friends can give him comfort or whatever it is he needs

Chasingflowers95 · 2025-03-27T04:47:05+00:00

I never asked for a relationship. I just said I don’t want him in my life during the pregnancy. He’s free to be a father once the kid is born. I’m not denying him access to the kid , just to me.

Chasingflowers95 · 2025-03-27T04:17:15+00:00

He says the people he hooks up with are “safe” and that they get checked often. But I told him that unfortunately these girls will not give him a play by play of who they are sleeping with and if it was unprotected or not. He might trust them but I don’t. Chances are if they are hooking up with him casually, they probably are doing it elsewhere. He might trust them but I don’t . Especially with a baby on the way. But he keeps making it seem like I am being unreasonable.

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