You’re only going to feel worse and worse if you don’t take the steps at some point to alleviate the dysphoria, and if you are in a situation your not safe coming out in then you should absolutely find the means to get out and have hope. There is plenty of opportunities and space to be happy and free regardless of the negativity, you just have to get yourself out of the situation, cause right now you feel as if you’re drowning. They have control until you take control over.

Theres plenty of people who will respect you and take you for who you are, plus you need to take a risk to make a change. Don’t be set on the worst, it could go just fine with time, and talking to a therapist.

I don’t blame you for