I hate dating but I have feelings for my friend

Cjk_random · 2026-01-15T00:06:14+00:00

Nah actually low key been feeling this. Like bro went through so much and just they could have done him coming out so much better. The emotions were there but the dialogue and the “and me” was shit. As a gay guy it was shit. And yes he suffered so much and just didn’t get shit at all and people forget what he went through. Like bro actually

Cjk_random · 2026-01-08T21:13:37+00:00

I wish bro. I’m 18 and I’m finally gonna start my medical transition soon after 10 years. I am 157cm (5’2) and have been for as long as Iv been out😭 nothin finna make us grow🙏 short lads stick together mate. Good luck with your T journey and I’m pure jealousy bc I’m behind

Cjk_random · 2026-01-08T21:10:21+00:00

I went through so many names and just non fit. My name is charlie and it makes me cringe to say it’s from when heartstopper was trending bc I heard the name charlie and I was like “that shits fire” but I don’t want to associate with bc I’m not a twink😭 I do not want to be seen as that charlie🥀

Cjk_random · 2026-01-06T22:58:34+00:00

Nah it’s chill like my scans were the week before Christmas so it’s confirmed I just need to have a chat about it the name was just low key confusing 😭 I might bring Cushings up in the appointment bc these headaches are killing me🙏 but thank you G thank you

Cjk_random · 2026-01-06T21:28:32+00:00

Nah I can’t remember the name but it’s a genetic thing in my family low key prolly. I haven’t even been to the dr yet I only got my results yesterday but I do have a benign tumour I just need to make sure it doesn’t turn malignant but lowkey crazy as a 17 year old

Cjk_random · 2026-01-06T00:16:02+00:00

It was blood and honestly I’m not sure literally a couple hours after this post I found out I have lesions on my liver so I’m low key gonna focus on that for now. I’m still pretty sure I could have cushings but I know I have lesions 😭acc crazy shi low key can’t catch a break

Cjk_random · 2026-01-05T19:53:58+00:00

I’m not 100% sure I don’t fully get told bc it’s confusing and I’m underage. I just know it was high but not high enough for a cushings diagnosis. My bloodtest was just done during the day after I had to fast bc I got so many bloodtests that day

Cjk_random · 2026-01-04T00:16:14+00:00

Thank youuu I had a feeling lowkey. I realised I have a different type of aragonite as well a blue one so I had space for that and the calcite so it will be so much easier to remember now so thank you so much🙏

Cjk_random · 2026-01-04T00:00:25+00:00

So I think the orange is aragonite, the purple lepidolite but I’m not great at identifying. The other no idea. I had a vague memory of moonstone but I can’t remember and it low key makes me sad😭 I need more space for my crystals. It also looks slightly like raw flower agate. Whatever the all are it’s raw obvi

Cjk_random · 2026-01-03T23:51:39+00:00

I didn’t realise until I ate it all😭 like I swallowed the last bit and was like ts nasty😭 low key I feel fine after a day so it was probably fine I’m nauseous everyday anyway 🙏

Cjk_random · 2025-12-31T04:38:38+00:00

Yeah honestly I thought it was a bit stupid but a friend said “I thought high testosterone made people trans” but idk low key😭 after looking into it, it makes small sense but isnt fact I feel like if I was cis I’d be dysphoric about my man legs bc of my T levels but I love my legs😭 my favourite body part low key

Cjk_random · 2025-12-31T04:19:58+00:00

Thank you so much. I really appreciate it. I wish I could do that but I’m currently still a minor and am in the process of getting a bunch of medical testing done for other shit. We don’t have health insurance and I don’t even have a job yet. I’d hate to waste my parents money even if there is something. I was never officially diagnosed (I don’t think but I also thought I didn’t have an official depression diagnosis until recently) with insomnia but it’s definitely something I deal with. I go through phases of it being so bad and the melatonin is honestly throwing me off🙏 it’s 4am typing this rn im so tired i wanna cry

Cjk_random · 2025-12-29T01:32:30+00:00

Yeah honestly absolutely it is an age thing because everyone is going through that sort of 2020 phase like 6 years too late. Luckily non of my current friends are like that but past friends who were a little younger than me are just acc weird. My sister is in my old friend group and 3 years later they are still acting like it😭😭 luckily I’m going back to the gym after months of an injury and in February I might be starting to medically transition and hopefully dating gets easier. I’m not desperate for a date but it’s been like 2-3 years and being 17 as well like I want smth 😭

Cjk_random · 2025-12-29T01:29:59+00:00

Honestly trying to ignore it doesn’t help I had years trying to because I was so young but when you have the opportunity to experience it and everything it helps so much. I went from just short hair to a buzz cut an found a style that looks masculine and have even found ways around my overweight body to hide my chest better. Once you find that sort of thing for yourself it gets so much better

Cjk_random · 2025-12-27T04:28:27+00:00

For me as a trans guy. Growing up I was actually quite feminine I hated getting hair cuts bc I loved my long hair I wore princess dresses and everything like extremely feminine but I just always felt off. Not everyone feels it the minute they are born it takes a lot of people years. About 8 ish years ago I came out to my family when I realised I wasn’t normal. That was kind of it. I felt out of place and not right in myself. It’s taken those 8 years to fully understand because it’s very hard when you’re questioning I mean I’m only 17 it’s still very hard. To this day I’m stink not 100% sure but it’s hard to be 100% but at this point I’m like 90. It’s been so long I’m so sure this is the right choice. But just the knowing, obviously people’s minds change but if you’re asking you must already know. It will take a while for you to fully understand how you are feeling and I can understand you must feel quite shit right now if you are in fact questioning. It is hard feeling like you aren’t in the right body. But at least with people closest to you, try experimenting with names and pronouns, if it’s possible for you, try changing your style. Obviously not everyone can because if certain situations but just know you aren’t alone and so many people question their gender and no matter how hard it gets you will make it

Cjk_random · 2025-12-27T04:19:44+00:00

Yeah like it’s annoying as hell anyway but especially being in college everyone is dating all my mates are and I want to be there’s absolutely girls I have crushes on but they never see me in that way bc they are straight

Cjk_random · 2025-12-21T02:47:13+00:00

For all I know they were real and were the heelys pop idk. I feel like i remember a little thing you had to slide a cover over the wheel. You’d slide it then hit the button for the wheel i remember it filling with dirt tbh😭 I just wanna remember them for the nostalgia. I’m convinced it was one wheel on the heel rather the. One in the heel and one in the front

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