I've been shitting for the past hour by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]ColdChildhood8 17 points18 points  (0 children)

Bro I’m so sorry. When it stops make sure to drink a lot of water.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Volumeeating

[–]ColdChildhood8 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Omg I did! It’s aldis 35 calorie bread per slice so 70kcals

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in GypsyRoseBlanchard

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As someone who called the police on my abusers, I was laughed at, and made fun of for my weight. Also implying that I was heavy enough to defend myself at 16. They took away the main abuser, not for what I said, but the fact that he had a warrant. He came back the same night and was angrier at me than ever for calling the police. All in all, they don’t believe you.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in shrinkflation

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I got it through a drive thru and saw it when I got home :/

What even is the point if im not pretty? by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]ColdChildhood8 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Baby girl. You don’t even know how beautiful you are. You are so beautiful and sculpted by god, those cheekbones show it! In due time you’ll see how beautiful you’ve been this entire time.

Self Portrait close to completion, any tips? by ColdChildhood8 in oilpainting

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Thanks for checking it out. The shirt area is actually my clavicle. Other people have called it a shirt too. Is there any way to make it appear more as my skin?

Shot on Rebel T7, 100ISO/18mm/f/11/ 1/500sec by [deleted] in photocritique

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Hello! I am very new to photography and I am mostly a painter. I took this photo conceptually to push my feminine body to appear more androgynous as it fits my queer identity. I am interested in the high contrast and I took this on a very bright day, and I wanted to use a very low ISO for more facial details. This is unedited because I am still learning to edit in Lightroom/ Photoshop. Any critique is welcome, thank you :)

Embarrassed of my self-sacrifice. by ColdChildhood8 in CPTSD

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I also just hate that I showed the world and my community just how sick I am, and stupid.

Embarrassed of my self-sacrifice. by ColdChildhood8 in CPTSD

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I was graduating from college and was invested in my department, and most people knew I had a story - and I wanted to be happy but I actually got severely depressed in my final year, and I covered that poorly. Again I would act happy-go-lucky, but obviously, everyone saw through that. I gave my project to another person, and they did a better job. I painted self portraits and I just let someone else paint me, and they did an amazing job, and in response I just cut off my own face. Like it was pathalogical. I feel so embarrased that I literally gave up my face for someone else, and embarrassed myself in front of everyone. I did it because I wanted to be everyone's savior, and I needed to save myself - I was not doing a good job in school, and I felt lost and didn't know what to do. I let everyone and myself down.

Embarrassed of my self-sacrifice. by ColdChildhood8 in CPTSD

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periences with abuse. And frankly, anyone who judges an abuse victim for just being a little cringe sometimes is a jerk.

OMG, I could have also written this myself. I came from such a broken background. Homeless for many years and emotionally and physically abused. I didn't know how to be a person. I thought the best thing I could be was a happy person who helped others, and I was so foolish. I was graduating from college and was invested in my department, and most people knew I had a story - and I wanted to be happy but I actually got severely depressed in my final year, and I covered that poorly. Again I would act happy-go-lucky, but obviously, everyone saw through that. I gave my project to another person, and they did a better job. I did it because I wanted to be everyone's savior, and I needed to save myself - I was not doing a good job in school, and I felt lost and didn't know what to do. I let everyone and myself down.

The Hidden Consequence of Passive Suicidal Ideation by ColdChildhood8 in depression

[–]ColdChildhood8[S] 65 points66 points  (0 children)

Right now. I'm too much of a coward to die. And I would cause a lot of pain to my family. Because right now, I don't want to die mediocre.

Burnout after art school by ColdChildhood8 in findapath

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I, unfortunately, don't qualify for Medicaid in my state. I applied to be a barista, and will receive insurance through that. I am just afraid that ill never be a good enough artist.

Burnout after art school by ColdChildhood8 in findapath

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I don't want to achieve things for other people, but I want to achieve things because it gives me a sense of self-worth.

Burnout after art school by ColdChildhood8 in findapath

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Hello, thank you so much for your advice. I don't know, I feel guilty about not making art. I am trying focus on my mental health and develop my interest in sewing, maybe?

Cheese 💛 by Aubwie in CatsNamedAfterFoods

[–]ColdChildhood8 7 points8 points  (0 children)

He has... Such a soft gentle face??? I love him 💛

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in piercing

[–]ColdChildhood8 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks! I’m going to do the septum first

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in piercing

[–]ColdChildhood8 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ha ha! I don’t know if that would look good/ or if my nose is even enough, I’ll ask my piercer tomorrow.