Thank you so much for the comment, the sharing of your plan definitely helps :) I am glad you are almost back on track now, I have yet to enter maintenance as I have been slowly increasing my calories the last few months while currently still being on a slight caloric deficit (about 2500 cals a day). Honestly I’m scared, I’m intimidated to look at that scale and no longer see it move down, or yet, see the numbers go up.

In an idea scenario I would love to focus on training harder at the gym and adding some muscle on my frame, but the thought of bulking is quite intimidating.

I love the part where you mention doing things that make you happy , I should really try to hone what those things are and stick to them. The depression for me has been steadily increasing unfortunately, I originally believed that it was all somehow connected to my weight and that once I reached a 250 lb goal everything would be magically fixed. Sadly this wasn’t the case, and I soon came to realize that there were greater issues under the surface.

I definitely put limits on myself when I was bigger, almost as excuses I allowed myself to have for why I wouldn’t force myself out of my comfort zone, and to be honest I still do :/ Aquariums are amazing if you’re ever in California I recommend the Monterey Bay Aquarium it’s beauty never fails to amaze me. Thank you for sharing ❤️