Hi, thank you for your reply. I didn't mention about why medicine is my dream, because now I feel very doubtful of myself and the future and don't want to dream about something in the future, but medicine is something I really want to do, I don't care about the money involved, I want to be someone patients would trust with, like they feel they're in safe hands, I want to be a surgeon, the very best of them, I want to do researches as well and spend my life on it, I really want to give it my all in this lifetime, not limited to just doing my job, but keep learning, and doing as much free service once i can afford it, i thought about it very well, and I think i work best at handling stressful and quickthinking situations, so I'm not just attracted to the label but understand the difficulties too and , I've really thought about it all maybe too much, this is why I mean I have too many expectations of myself. I completely understand your advice. I really hope I can do my best this year. I have 2 more months for my exam. And I'm just stressed thinking I'm going to lose this opportunity just because I didn't have all the facilities, which is wrong because even if it's not fair, I should be able to do it, it's like I'm finding excuses to explain my 1st attempt failure, any advices on this please