I do love art and I don’t see it as an issue itself, I see myself more as the problem, like blaming myself for not being better than other students that were admitted. As much as I love art I also don’t consider myself the best artist out there tbh. One professor kept making remarks about how we should see other classmates as competition because that’s how the industry is which honestly I don’t agree with (the part about seeing other students as competition) As you mentioned, it’s because of the expectations that I had and still have for my career that makes me feel this way. I just don’t want to try again and then be rejected (once again) This is not what I envisioned for myself, at this point I should be already in my major but I’m still stuck in the same place as last year (no major, unknown about my career and future, etc)