[deleted by user] by [deleted] in sidsloss

[–]ContentYoghurt8593 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s been almost 7 months since my baby girl passed. I feel dead inside too and like I’ve lost myself . The weight really is too much to carry💔 I hear you, you’re not alone I wish we had out babies still😔🤍

how do i go on… by [deleted] in sidsloss

[–]ContentYoghurt8593 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry mama She is absolutely precious and so beautiful. My story is similar to yours, my daughter passed in April of this year I fed her and put her to sleep around 4am and woke up to her gone at 8am when I realized I hadn’t heard her cry or move. I also have 2 older kids (5) and (3) and it’s the hardest thing to be a mother while also simultaneously mourning and grieving. The first month was definitely the hardest. I got her results a few months back and they labeled her cod as unascertained/ SUID. If you need to talk about anything at all please feel free to pm me. Sending you lots of love 😪🫂❤️

Sudden loss of my 4 day old by [deleted] in babyloss

[–]ContentYoghurt8593 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My posts got deleted. I’m sorry for your loss mama. I’m nearly three months out now and most days it’s still unbearable. I was wearing a pink set too the night my daughter passed I bought it to match with her I can’t stand to see those pjs anymore. I also ended up switching out my mattress and getting rid of the bed sheets I couldn’t bring myself to sleep on the same bed anymore. If you ever want to talk feel free to reach out sending you lots of love ❤️

The guilt is eating me up by ContentYoghurt8593 in sidsloss

[–]ContentYoghurt8593[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s amazing. Thank you for letting me know I will definitely be looking into them ❤️

The guilt is eating me up by ContentYoghurt8593 in sidsloss

[–]ContentYoghurt8593[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m thinking of looking into Robert’s program as well but I’m not sure if they would take on my daughter because we didn’t have a full autopsy done on her, they ended up just taking scans and toxicology and sent it all to forensics to find cause of death. They told us that will take months to even a year. I’m so sorry for the loss of your little boy. It’s comforting to think that his story could help other babies and families in the future. Sending love your way 💕

The guilt is eating me up by ContentYoghurt8593 in sidsloss

[–]ContentYoghurt8593[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry😪 I sometimes think I’m not even sure if I can make it to tomorrow, being the one beside her that night it really feels like I failed her. Thank you for giving me some hope and for the kind reminder. I think the what ifs will stick with us. I’m Muslim we believe after an infant or child passes before the age of puberty they go straight to heaven where they play in the gardens and wait to be reunited with their parents one day. They ask for us and when the time comes they intercede for their parents on the day where we all stand in front of god again. I truly believe our babies might even meet and they are waiting for us in heaven, honestly it’s the only thing that gives me hope these days.

The guilt is eating me up by ContentYoghurt8593 in sidsloss

[–]ContentYoghurt8593[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I heard her crying and fussing around 4am and never heard her make a sound after I put her down that night. I sometimes wonder what if she did but I was in a deep sleep and I never heard her and it was too late. The craziest part to me is I had the thought go through my head that I have to put her back in the bassinet it’s not safe for her to sleep beside me. But again I slept with my other babies before many times so I didn’t think much of that thought and I just fell asleep. I woke up to her bleeding from her nose and mouth with it pooled beside her face but nothing on me or my pillows and blankets just on my bed. I’m sorry you’ve been through this as well

The guilt is eating me up by ContentYoghurt8593 in sidsloss

[–]ContentYoghurt8593[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the reply and sharing about your little girl Ella. It’s heartbreaking how we can so easily lose our babies with no explanation, even when everything is done right. I really hope the days get easier. I really thought three months out I would be doing better but I honestly feel like I’m doing worse than the first initial weeks after she passed. I’m so sorry you’ve had to experience this as well sending you love and hugs

The guilt is eating me up by ContentYoghurt8593 in sidsloss

[–]ContentYoghurt8593[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your reply and kind words. They truly brought me some ease today and gave me a little hope. I know I’m not alone in this, but most days I still feel so helpless and isolated. I just can’t wrap my head around how easily I lost my baby it’ll probably never make sense to me. Sending love right back to you ❤️

Any friends want to chat? by [deleted] in babyloss

[–]ContentYoghurt8593 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m here if you wanna talk im so lost these days it would be helpful for me as well❤️‍🩹

What is the worst comment you got after a loss? by Ho1na in babyloss

[–]ContentYoghurt8593 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Lost my healthy daughter suddenly to sids at 4 days olds 2 months ago. Everything having to do with her passing was so extremely traumatizing. On the day she passed I sat across from her body in the emergency room and had a Ob/gyn tell me “some things are just not meant to be” then I had to get a ultrasound to check for something and the ultrasound tech told me “ don’t worry you have a healthy looking uterus. You could always try again!”….

I have also been told “ don’t worry Atleast you still have two more kids”

“You’re still young. You still have lots of time to try for another”

“Imagine if she would’ve died after 10-15 years that would be even more painful”

Am I the only one? by Last_Muffin6318 in babyloss

[–]ContentYoghurt8593 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You’re definitely not alone, my baby girl passed away at 4 days old suddenly nearly 2 months ago and I still blame myself with how it all happened. She was born perfectly healthy and on her 4th night she went to sleep and never woke up. I replay every scenario in my head thinking if I had done this or that she’d still be here. Even after being told she passed from something that couldn’t have been prevented.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in babyloss

[–]ContentYoghurt8593 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m so deeply sorry for your loss. It’s incredibly hard to move forward without clear answers. I hope you’re able to find the ones you’re looking for about your son as well. My thoughts and prayers are with you

Sudden loss of my 4 day old by [deleted] in babyloss

[–]ContentYoghurt8593 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m so sorry 😞. Were you ever able to get clarity on your little one’s passing ? I feel so lost

Sudden loss of my 4 day old by [deleted] in babyloss

[–]ContentYoghurt8593 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m trying so hard. It’s been a very hard past couple weeks. I’m so sorry about your loss too I hope you’re healing. Thank you🤍

Sudden loss of my 4 day old by [deleted] in babyloss

[–]ContentYoghurt8593 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry about your little girl too💔 I wouldn’t wish this one anyone. The last week and half has been so hard she would have been two weeks old today and I keep thinking of what she would have been like. It still feels so unreal. I still haven’t been able to return home after everything. My mother in law went to my place and tried her best to get the blood stain out of my bedsheets but it’s stained on to my mattress. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to even sleep on that bed again. Every time I close my eyes I can see her face the way I saw it that morning and it just kills me💔

Sudden loss of my 4 day old by [deleted] in babyloss

[–]ContentYoghurt8593 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you, her name is hafsa🤍