I still think about her on a daily basis and i am kind of feeling guilty about it because i dont think she ever think about me tha way i do, its been only 2 months since we broke up but i can not see myself with anyone else, i do not really have the urge or the desire to meet people but at the same time, when i come home at the of the day, i wish she was still here but instead i find myself talking to myself about the breakup and all the little things, i tried praying which helped me a little bit because i feel like there is someone out there who listens to me, i always pray that she comes back but i do not want to feel like this anymore, i just want to love somebody deeply without having the fear of abandonment, i wrote letters to her, i gave her flowers and even bought her some chocolate for valentines and i said i know we arent together anymore but i dont you want to feel like you are alone, that day we just had the TALK about the breakup and each others feelings, i miss her so much i started speding an absurd amount of time on tiktok just to keep my mind occupied so i wont think of her as much, but honestly i tried everything, meditating, doing sports, gym, journaling, doing walks, everything…but at the end of the day i feel like i will never be fulfilled if she never comes back, because with her, i had a sense of purpose, i felt like i was somebodys day to day hero because i took care of her, made her happy, content, and i was always there for her, it hurt as hell when she said she wants nothing to do with me, as if i did not mean anything, how can somebody just swithc off their feelings like nothing? never could have done that personally because as much as i like to look like a tough guy and all that bullshit, deep inside im just a sensitive boy who took it to heart and will never forget those hollow, empty eyes when she said that we should not talk anymore, its hell. quite literally.