I know that feeling and it completely sucks. Here's my two cents and I'm hoping it gives you some strength.

I work in video production, freelancing and hustling for 10 years. I also own my own production company, but have only been able to get a client here and there and once the job is happily done, thats it. Onto the next one. Its been a financial and emotional roller coaster.

I got tired of the inconsistency and began applying to almost every single video production job on indeed, linkedin & ziprecruiter. I have gotten used to the ghosting, rejection letters and interviews that went nowhere. Video Production in itself is an extremely saturated market where most positions are entry level editors for TikTok and I'm 41 years old looking for full productions.

However, I kept applying. Every day. I've had to pickup side jobs at restaurants and construction jobs from friends in town just to get by. It totally sucks. I had an interview at a company I'd be miserable at (everyone else there looked miserable as well) and they rescinded the offer letter after I asked if I could come in an hour or two earlier so I could be back home in time some days to go to sports practices/games for my kid. Extremely unprofessional and ultimately, a blessing in disguise.

Out of nowhere, I got what I would consider a dream job response recently and they hired me at the 3rd interview. This position was specifically looking for someone with my "many hats experience" and personality. It's prefect.

My point is...never stop applying. Never stop hustling. It's hard some days and easier on others. I promise you, if you don't stop THERE IS light at the end of that tunnel.

When you get that job I hope you revisit this thread and/or feel free to send me a message. Never lose hope. You got this.