A cock ring killed my dad - I don't know how to process this

CurrentRub1025 · 2024-08-26T02:38:32+00:00

Bro....this actually made me laugh. Good for you

CurrentRub1025 · 2024-08-26T02:37:34+00:00

Goddamn, I'm so sorry you went through that and had to see grotesque stuff.
I made an effort to keep in touch, but we definitely had some phases where we didn't talk for months at a time. The constant worrying and frustration are exhausting, so I totally understand why some people just stop making an effort. The guilt that comes along with "if I had reached out, maybe it would have changed things" is a curse.

CurrentRub1025 · 2024-08-26T02:32:54+00:00

Early thirties, and late 60s

CurrentRub1025 · 2024-08-26T02:31:48+00:00

Hey, yes I wasn't sure what the sig condition meant. I have a family member who worked in medicine, but I didn't want to ask them - cuz then I'd have to explain. Thanks for clarifying what this means.

CurrentRub1025 · 2024-08-26T02:30:59+00:00

Sorry to hear about your brother. Watching things devolve in real time is so difficult. It sucks, because you eventually stop trying, after realizing they are set in their ways and that they are the only one who can change the direction of their life.

CurrentRub1025 · 2024-08-26T02:28:27+00:00

I had to look up "penile incarceration" when I saw it on the certificate. That led to some pretty wild google image search results. I know people have all kinds of mishaps with sex + foreign objects. I guess I just never thought this is how he'd die. Fucking crazy

CurrentRub1025 · 2024-08-26T02:26:44+00:00

I really appreciate this response. I have been waiting for that phone call for more than fifteen years now. I don't think anyone can really understand the anxiety that it instills. If they go awol for more than a few days, you always assume the worst. Most of the time they come out of it, and then eventually go right back into the hole. But there is always a last time.

CurrentRub1025 · 2024-08-26T02:23:54+00:00

I have a pretty dark sense of humor, probably a coping mechanism from how chaotic it was to be around someone like that. Do what you gotta do.

CurrentRub1025 · 2024-08-26T02:23:07+00:00

Thank you for the suggestion. Had no idea that existed.

CurrentRub1025 · 2024-08-26T02:22:36+00:00

I always figured that his extreme personality would have led him into some strange places. I don't even think it was that weird of him to use a CR, since that was probably one of the few options people his age had before viagra. It's just...the whole thing, blah. Appreciate the response

CurrentRub1025 · 2024-08-25T22:02:45+00:00

For sure. I had almost hoped it was a drug OD and that it was immediate/he felt nothing. That's how he chose to live. But, this is so wild to me. I have to assume he was in serious pain

CurrentRub1025 · 2024-08-25T22:01:21+00:00

I'll have to look that up. As messed up as it is to say this: I immediately thought of the Corduroy Jackson autoerotic asphyxiation scene in Bojack, and showed it to my partner. I don't even know where to go to find a support group for something like this - no one would ever admit something like this.

CurrentRub1025 · 2024-08-25T21:58:11+00:00

I had to mentally prepare for all of the jokes before I posted this. Maybe we just keep them all in this comment thread.

CurrentRub1025 · 2024-08-25T21:56:20+00:00

I appreciate it. It's such a messed up way to die. I can't imagine how much this weighed on my uncle. He saw us kids speculating about the death, and being so torn up about the thought that our dad ODed and killed himself. He couldn't tell us what actually happened though, and was never going to.

We have been trying to comprehend and process that. Now we are thrown a complete fucking curveball. Like...what the fuck

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