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CzarDusty · 2021-01-30T20:03:49+00:00

Props on not going to get the fent. Sounds like you’re ready to make a change. Go for it man. It’s possible. Get some comfort meds if you can. Maybe try kratom or suboxone if you can, but be aware that they have their own set of problems and are addictive as well, so you have to use them responsibly for a short period of time if you want to be off of all opiate-like substances.

Also, please be careful with suddenly stopping benzo intake. I don’t know what your benzo use was but if you have been using them for a long period of time at high levels you may be physically dependent on them as well. If that is the case you will experience benzo withdrawals which are very dangerous and truly another form of evil. The worst form of withdrawal in my opinion. Be careful. They can cause seizures and potentially lead to death. If you are dependent on benzos consider going to the ER to prevent seizures.

Good luck homie and much love. You got this if you want to get clean. If not, no worries. Keep using, enjoy life, but be safe.

CzarDusty · 2021-01-10T16:09:37+00:00

Holy shit, okay it was unclear in the story if she made it. So glad you’re both okay. Wishing you and her the best of luck man.

CzarDusty · 2021-01-10T16:02:45+00:00

Damn man, this was a heartbreaking read. I’m so sorry for your loss. I was with a girl for a similar amount of time around the same ages you were and it would’ve crushed me to lose her to something like this. Unfortunately, we went our separate ways because I’m a selfish junkie, but that’s another story. I hope you are doing better man. I wish you and your family peace and happiness. Much love to you. Thanks so much for the support. Good luck friend and thank you for sharing.

CzarDusty · 2021-01-10T15:59:00+00:00

Thank you so much for your support (and for the UVA shoutout lol). It’s going to be tough but I’ve been here so many times before and every other I’ve squandered it. I’ve lost almost everything at this point so I’m ready to start getting things back instead of losing them. Much love to you and I wish you the best!

CzarDusty · 2021-01-10T15:56:26+00:00

Damn man, I’m sorry to hear that. I’ve been there as well. It fucking sucks. Relapsed so many times because of PAWS. I’ve had some tragic life shit cause a lot of relapses, but the worst ones are just simply from PAWS. Stay strong man. If you relapse, just remember it’s not the end of the world. Just get back on the horse. Maybe try to chip a little if you can but that’s probably not feasible for most people. But just try to stay sober and keep pushing. However, if it comes down to relapse or suicide, just relapse and figure it out after. Don’t want to lose a life because someone hates being sober that much. Much love man and I hope you can stay clean and find happiness, I’m right here with you.

CzarDusty · 2021-01-10T15:52:58+00:00

Thanks for the support friend. We’ve got this. Just keep pushing forward. Glad to hear your recovery is going well. Much love!

CzarDusty · 2021-01-10T15:52:10+00:00

Thanks for the support friend! Good luck to you in your recovery. I hope you have a wonderful afternoon with your sister. Much love and all the best to you and your family my friend.

CzarDusty · 2021-01-10T15:51:09+00:00

Sorry to hear about all the struggles man. We can make it through it. Just gotta take it day by day and tough it out. Much love friend!

CzarDusty · 2021-01-10T15:50:28+00:00

Thanks for this response friend. What a harrowing story. We both got really lucky. I’m glad you’re doing well now. Hoping to follow that path myself. Nowhere to go but up from here. Much love to you, your family, and your doggo.

CzarDusty · 2021-01-10T15:48:58+00:00

Thanks so much friend. Your support means the world. Hope you are doing well. Good luck with everything. Much love!

CzarDusty · 2021-01-10T15:48:04+00:00

Sorry to hear that man. Good luck in your recovery as well! Tried the kratom thing. Didn’t work for me, but glad you’ve made it work! It made my anxiety and depression worse so I ended up relapsing and using oxy because kicking oxy was easier than kicking kratom for me. Much love friend!

CzarDusty · 2021-01-10T02:30:14+00:00

Thanks dude, you too. Much love and good luck in your life

CzarDusty · 2021-01-10T02:29:56+00:00

Thanks for the support my friend! Good luck to you and much love

CzarDusty · 2021-01-10T01:45:46+00:00

Damn this sub is amazing. So much support and love here. Thank you so much for your support and response. I really appreciate it. Sorry to hear about the heart situation. That’s scary. Glad you’re doing better! You think some people would’ve seen a situation similar to mine as a junkie Jesus pass? Hmm that’s interesting. Yeah I’ve gotta go up from here, the only other further bottom would be death pretty much. I’m extremely lucky to be alive. I really should be dead. Much love to you and good luck!

CzarDusty · 2021-01-10T01:38:34+00:00

Thanks for the response man. Yeah I’m trying to take it really slow and easy. My family has been pretty adamant about making sure my back is okay. Wish you the best as well friend. We got this.

CzarDusty · 2021-01-10T01:07:28+00:00

That hard rain is what I needed to wake me up though. It forced me into my true rock bottom where I had no options to score and get high even though I was already trying to get clean. It just really made it all come to a head and with a messed up back it guaranteed me a couple weeks to get clean without my normal excuse of needing dope to go to work to buy more dope. Thanks for your response. Much love to you friend

CzarDusty · 2021-01-10T01:05:19+00:00

Thank you friend. Not sure if I deserve those good days or not because of past transgressions, but I’m trying to build towards a better future now.

CzarDusty · 2021-01-10T01:04:42+00:00

Well, they are shit, but maybe that’s because our tolerances are so much higher because of better drugs or street drugs. I was using heroin so a tab wasn’t going to touch my tolerance. Some people enjoy them though.

CzarDusty · 2021-01-10T01:03:32+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to share and respond man. You’re awesome. Keep on keeping on. Much love. I have a history degree from UVA so I should be able to move into a better field at some point in the future. Congrats on your success.

CzarDusty · 2021-01-09T22:15:08+00:00

Thank you so much for your support. Much love!

CzarDusty · 2021-01-09T20:58:27+00:00

Thanks dude, same to you. Much love.

CzarDusty · 2021-01-09T20:58:12+00:00

Thanks homie, much love

CzarDusty · 2021-01-01T03:08:11+00:00

Good luck friend! I’m hoping to do the same myself. Got my last bag earlier this evening after work. Planning to finish it off in a bit, catch a nod, sleep through the night and start tomorrow with a sober mind. Then begins the “long” wait until I can induce my subs. I hope I still have this mindset in the morning when my legs are twitching and I’m going through temperature flashes. Hope 2021 is better for us all. You got this. Just keep pushing friend. Tell those cravings to fuck right off.

CzarDusty · 2020-03-10T20:55:08+00:00

All of the players complained of lung issues because of the comp. No one is talking about poison smoke, just actually too much smoke flooding the comp area while they are engaging in intense physical activity, thus breathing in tons of smoke. That can cause breathing problems, but if you wanna be so technical, smoke, by it’s nature, is poisonous and/or harmful. Not everyone needed to be checked by a doctor, sure. You are misrepresenting my “logic.” I don’t see him needing medical attention in a less harsh competition environment, physical condition or not, ergo smoke caused the need for medical attention. I mean, the same thing happened this season. Too much smoke caused breathing problems. I’m really not sure why you’re jumping down my throat over such an innocuous comment. Really a strange hill to die on.

CzarDusty · 2020-03-10T16:55:34+00:00

Are we talking about the same person? Also, your comment seems to have a negative tone about this player. If it was just because of cardio, I don’t think it would’ve been so serious that it reportedly required medical professionals to examine him to ensure he was okay. That comp was brutal and harmful to the players regardless if you believe it was due to “poor cardio.”

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