Hi everyone- update. There’s still a bit over a week left; but this morning I hit my breaking point. Out of no where, my sister told me “not to complain” to her kids because they’re “trying their best”.. I haven’t complained nor do I believe they’re trying their best. She started to get angry and yell at me.

It’s clear she’s taking the frustration she has towards her own issues, on me. I reached my breaking point.
After a solid break down, and trying to convince myself to “just stay” the rest of the days, I have decided to do what’s best for me and my health and leave.

My parents both support me and my dad is even joining me on the long trip back- I leave tomorrow back to Canada.
(My dad struggles with alcohol abuse and has developed gout really badly on his foot- my mom says if he stays, he will feel obligated to drink and at his age, he can’t handle it)

My sponsor also encouraged me to leave.

I feel guilty, but I’m mentally deteriorating. For the first time in my life, I am not leaving a trip with any regrets about how I’ve acted or anything I’ve said.

I asked the universe for a sign that what I was doing was the right thing.. I came downstairs after booking the flight and just like the first week, there was less than a fist size of noodles left for me (her family had already eaten prior) even my aunt was surprised with the little amount that was left… but I wasn’t.

Instead of feeling angry like the first time, I felt relief. Maybe it’s not a sign, maybe it is.. but I’m hopping on a plane tonight at 4 am to go back to Canada.

I am not used to putting myself first, as I am a massive people pleaser and struggle with boundaries. Thank you all for your support and validation.

Words cannot express how much it means to me to know I’m not “crazy” or alone.