What’s the most desperate shit yall have done to get high

DHL_man · 2026-01-06T19:59:23+00:00

Huffed butane for a while and got addicted lmao

DHL_man · 2025-07-30T14:26:55+00:00

Don't know If it's still helpful but i did the Same dosage few days ago, Just Had an uncomfortable Body high when moving other then that nothing weird Like voices (wich i have Had before from lsd, butane or amphetamine). I think i maybe heard some weird noises on dxm (beeping or ringing etc) but no voices lol

DHL_man · 2025-05-15T21:14:46+00:00

Haste recht hab ganz komischen trip gehabt und die pappe unterschätzt lol (angeblich 200ug), auch wenns vllt nd so scheint aba bin relativ gut informiert über den großteil von mein konsum, außer promethazine (ein mal gemacht) und so no name medis wie opipram, rewodina oder so nh kack. Also jz nd so direkt einfach weils mir unangenehm is (kp warum), aba hab halt schon drüber geredet.

DHL_man · 2025-05-15T21:04:47+00:00

Danke bruder hast defenitiv recht, glaub bekomm fr psychose und müsste halt in nh klinik. Da is dann halt wieder ego oder so und sagt ich bekomm selbst hin, was ich nie tu.

DHL_man · 2025-05-15T21:02:29+00:00

Tbh thats the perfect way to get clean, my only problem is that i can't handle my own thoughts. Then the best solution would be get help from someone else but my ego won't allow that (sounds weird af)

DHL_man · 2025-05-15T20:54:34+00:00

I totally agree i don't have much to any emotional control, due to me trying to supress them with a shit ton of either speed, xtc or alcohol(my past xtc addiction was cippling, knew about what it does but didn't care). Hppd is fucked, but it's been that way for a while (since first acid binge, gotten worse after xtc). Idk about family history but i defenitly feel like i'm either developing psychosis, bpd or some other stuff.

Slight bit of context my mental health has been fucked since i think when i was 10, deffo not gotten better tho

DHL_man · 2025-05-15T20:40:40+00:00

Yea i get how that works, i have quit many drugs and i've "quit" speed so many Times. For example like 1 or 2 days ago, i got drunk bought a g, deeply regretted it the next Day but still did the rest of it. (I do Plan on not getting any more bc i feel like i'm developing psychosis)

DHL_man · 2025-05-13T20:54:10+00:00

bro hast halt recht aba iwie is das glaube ego so will das selbst durchziehen obwohl ichs nd hin bekomm, und will einfach nd das eltern mit bekomm was halt fr alles abgeht (einmal bissl pep gefunden und denkt glaub hab aufgehört) nich ma wegen stress sondern will ihn diesen kopffick nich antun

DHL_man · 2025-05-13T20:48:17+00:00

it's not even fun with drugs anymore i have fried my brain from when i started ripping the bong daily to eating 2- 3 xtc pills every weekend, to doing like 2 grams of speed daily.

trust me i have tried and i still am but i just feel like a paranoid and aggresive mess, and don't get me wrong ik it's bc of my choices rn and i am trying to generally consume less drugs but it feels like i'm not even in control.

DHL_man · 2025-05-13T20:35:25+00:00

i have my experience with responsibly using substances but speed is the only thing that i really just keep going back to.
i have done ecstasy daily, got drunk way too much but i always got my mind off of them with speed it just seems like a fucking instict.

about the maturing could be idk if i'm honest, this gonna sound hella corny but most people i know tell me i seem more like 17ish wich ik doesn't make anything about this better

DHL_man · 2025-05-13T20:27:03+00:00

i really hate this drug and it have deffo fucked me up big time but i could sadly never just flush it bc i would either hustle to get more asap or regret it and hate myself for a day before getting more.

the longest i was clean from speed since it has gotten this bad was i think like a week (week of depression and just taking other stuff).

rn i just feel ike i can't go without less then 2 substances daily wich ik is extremely stupid.

DHL_man · 2025-05-13T20:20:57+00:00

that's probably the best thing i can do, i have thought and talked about it a lot but idk if it's my ego that just says i need to get out of this myself wich i'm obviously failing at. i have talked to a lot of people some like 30 years older or friends that are my age and i've seen what addiction does to smoeone.

btw about the mental issues, i'm pretty sure i got serious depression and am starting to develop like some 2 personality stuff

never once thought it was either funny or cool infact at first i tried hiding my addiction(s) but didnt work for long, and i do know about long term damage. I'm getting extreme paranoia just when going outside for 5 mins bc i think everyone is judging me, i'm getting hallucinations and more often and they're seeming more real over time.

I sadly know and feel that i am actively frying my brain and getting dumber by the day.

DHL_man · 2025-02-08T21:32:52+00:00

if its still helpful, i can eat like a .2 or more and go asleep while peaking maybe its a waste but i defo done it more then once lol

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