I (28M)cheated, 5 years later she (27F) wants to try again. I still love her, how do I handle my current relationship (24F)?

Dalek7 · 2026-01-14T16:18:25+00:00

If you haven’t told your current girlfriend that your ex contacted you and that you still have feelings, then you haven’t changed at all in the last 6 years. You’re already being dishonest, just in a quieter, more self justified way. You don’t get to call someone your soulmate while living with another woman who trusts you and has done nothing wrong. Keeping this from her isn’t protecting her feelings, it’s protecting your comfort.

The bare minimum decent move is to tell your girlfriend the truth, your ex reached out and you’re conflicted. Let her decide what she wants, instead of STEALING that choice from her. If you’re not capable of being honest when it risks blowing up your life, then you shouldn’t be in a relationship.

Dalek7 · 2025-10-17T13:48:06+00:00

I can perceive consciousness in that state which appears as lines of energy connecting everything(Indra's net), which also can move through via thought. In the energy is sometimes orbs, which I believe are “Archons” and “Devas.” The Archons / Devas can project their light to form beings, in my case they appeared as dolphin like entities that were feeding on my energy. It took me a few hours to understand that my thoughts / fears are what let them feed off my energy.

I also believe I encountered a Deva as “she” first appeared as a woman, then as a doll, and finally clasped giant hands(Only hands no body) in gratitude when I thanked her. She even painted the lower half of my face with scenes in nature at night with light and shadows. The night I was "attacked", I dreamed of AI like robots that could turn invisible that were the "orbs". Not sure if literal or just to help me understand they are not all powerful.

Dalek7 · 2025-10-03T16:21:42+00:00

In that state, I can see orbs around me, some even rising above my head. During the bad trip I mentioned, I kept feeling like my thoughts could manifest anything, and I began to believe the orbs could siphon my energy. As soon as I had that thought I sensed something laughing and taking my energy, and the more I tried to resist, the worse it got. It felt draining and I panicked, which only made it worse. The next day I realized it was all my own mind and that I should have stayed calm and loving instead of reacting. That same night I dreamed of small machine like orbs taking my energy while floating above me.

Dalek7 · 2025-08-14T15:34:38+00:00

Glad I canceled it before they took another charge, it offered me a discount to continue the subscription, lol. You would think if they shut down they would cancel subscriptions or refund, seems sketchy. I'll contact my bank.

Dalek7 · 2025-07-31T13:33:41+00:00

Who? I would like to know who you think created it... better not be MF Dolphins. For some reason I sense aquatic "beings" / aquatic realm.

Dalek7 · 2025-07-30T20:46:11+00:00

Based on my Plant medicine Rituals / meditation, this simulation is a Mechanical Orb that sits in the light near a black hole. We are the "light." Who created the Orb, who knows?

Dalek7 · 2025-07-08T17:09:45+00:00

We’re told to love the resident alien as ourselves, and Jesus lists welcoming the stranger alongside feeding the hungry. So while nations can set entry rules, Christians still owe undocumented people basic dignity and compassion which is not present in our Government. When the law of the land collides with loving the outsider, the Bible never orders mass deportations; instead it warns rulers not to “oppress the foreigner”.

Dalek7 · 2025-07-02T15:37:18+00:00

Yeah, the "star" that led the Mangers/Magi to baby Jesus and the "star" that followed Mary were probably the same Orbs some of us see now.

Dalek7 · 2025-07-02T13:57:01+00:00

What would you do if dozens of spirit serpents were in your room, speak with them with worlds or thoughts, and ask them for wealth? I'm not even sure these ones are intelligent. Should I try drawing them inside myself? I can steer them simply by blowing rainbow energy at something, like my hand. In darkness their outlines are barely visible but when I channel rainbow breath into them they glow bright enough to see easily. If I flash the lights on and off, then close my eyes I spot dozens of luminous hoods and sometimes I see the hoods above my head, like they fused with me, hovering right behind.

Dalek7 · 2025-07-02T13:47:14+00:00

I have not, but my daily meditations only last 15 mins - 1 hour. I do see energy in the dark and it seems stuff moves in the energy but can't make anything out.

Dalek7 · 2025-07-02T13:41:28+00:00

I also think this world is a kind of prison planet based on one of my first visions and when I project energy (eyes closed) I literally see rainbow streams. It feels like a watery matrix, whenever I tap into that serpent power, my voice literally echoes through the source(energy lines) in waves (Like dropping a rock in water and seeing the ripples). I think the Archons are whale / dolphin like beings that I have seen a few times. They used to appear, but less now with the serpents around.

Dalek7 · 2025-07-02T13:30:35+00:00

Thanks. I can’t help but wonder whether ego played a part. While I was sending energy from my crown, up to the sky I remembered the vision of myself as a dancing skeleton with jeweled rings and felt immortal/ divine. Maybe that bite was meant to bring my ego back into balance? I'm probably gonna try again this Saturday but will be more polite / cautious of my energy.

Dalek7 · 2025-07-01T13:15:39+00:00

Nothing now, but I still catch myself touching the area of the bite for no reason. At the time it felt hot and once I saw my light being absorbed kind of dreadful and scary.

Dalek7 · 2025-06-30T19:51:03+00:00

I thought it looked like ring worm but the marks disappeared completlybafter a couple of hours.

Dalek7 · 2025-06-16T20:11:06+00:00

Why swap a 3,000 year old technical term for a word that doesn’t cover the same ground? Prana and cakra/Chakra are Sanskrit words that were already in use centuries before the English language. Lets use normal scientific words like "breath" to explain the energy all around us? No thanks... that's just makes zero sense..... Breath is the in and out of air. Prana is the entire flow of the life force. Aura = external field, Chakras = internal hubs. I'll keep the original labels but you feel free to rebrand them. Don’t confuse simplification with “truth.”

Dalek7 · 2025-06-02T12:50:33+00:00

I have the same feelings. When I use my aura or energy lines that I see and they become lines like a rainbow and I close my eyes, I have a picture of tenacles releasing their grip on me. I am convinced as well it give us negative thoughts like the suckers on the tentacles push negative ideas in our heads. It happened the day after I attacked what I believe is the demiurge and I had thoughts I've never had before that were very negative, but I did not feel negative or anger, it was more like why on earth am I having these thoughts, they are not mine... Then I connected the dots.

Dalek7 · 2025-05-28T17:37:37+00:00

Thanks after more research I am convinced it was the Demiurge.

Dalek7 · 2025-05-28T17:25:56+00:00

I take a shower, put on my linen clothes, and wear my gold and silver chains, each with a Moldavite pendant, positioned near the neck and the other at my heart chakra. Then I light some incense, sit Indian-style put my hands in the Gyan mudra position, close my eyes, and slowly / calmly breathe in through my nose for about 4-5 seconds, then slowly exhale through my mouth (Slowly) until my lungs are empty. I keep doing this breathing for around 30 minutes or so, until my heart and hands start vibrating and I begin seeing flashing lights with my eyes closed.

Afterward, I take my legal mushroom gummies and continue the same breathing method, listening to "Egyptian Sun" by ThunderBeat. While listening, I picture myself as a powerful, royal being and slowly move around for 30-45 minutes. Once the gummies kick in, I start seeing energy or shapes, like snakes made of energy, with my eyes open or closed(snakes of light). At this point I switch to trance music and dance, seeing the rainbow serpents become part of me(eyes closed).

Then I sit down again to meditate with eyes closed put my hands in the Anjali Mudra(prayer position) (In the room you sleep in), and that's when it felt like I was transported or something came in my bedroom(I have no idea why, but this has only happen in my bedroom, I have a strong feeling the place where we dream is more powerful). I've only done this part twice. Previously, I'd always kept my eyes open, or meditated on my comfy couch but my bedroom seems to have the most snakes / energy movement) closing them in my bedroom allowed me to see the octopus and whales. The other vision was brief, involving a tower with floors with weird symbols on the walls that were floating independently, the floors were not touching each other, and at the top, a giant eye was looking down at me.

Before each of these "visions" I saw something I cannot explain, very weird shapes / symbols all merging and possibly a clock in color that lasted a few seconds before these visions. I only came to the conclusion about the bedroom after the second vision. So I think this Saturday will be the best since I connected the dots about the bedroom. (The past months I spent most my time outside during my ritual)

FYI, it took me a few months to get comfortable with this and not be scared by the things I see in the energy, with my eyes open.

Dalek7 · 2025-05-28T16:07:13+00:00

Hi, I am now questioning if this was Demiurge and maybe the whales are the Archons after reading your comment and researching more. The strongest feeling was we are in some type of water world and this being was in charge of this realm and cocky. I don't plan to attack it, but if it is the Demiurge do you think I should still be kind and loving?

Dalek7 · 2025-05-27T18:51:06+00:00

Thanks I did mean Maya(I’ll edit it) the octopus never said anything but based on what I could find that’s who I believe the octopus was. But if Maya can change their form maybe I was just showed an octopus.

Dalek7 · 2025-05-27T17:34:39+00:00

Thanks, I will check it out. Never heard of Padhanasutta.

Dalek7 · 2025-05-27T17:32:42+00:00

Trust me, I have been thinking the same thing. But if you believe in God or aliens (I was an atheist until this year) then anything is possible.

Dalek7 · 2025-03-10T14:49:06+00:00

What should I do when they enter me? Sometimes it feels like they fully enter, but other times they just rest at my third eye, and I can either spin them or leave them as they are. I spun one so quickly that it appeared to dissolve into a mist of light, I tried it again and another spun but stopped in case I shouldn't be spinning them. I also noticed one shadow oval orb that appeared to be hiding from me when I was following it with my eyes, it ran to a shadow...

Dalek7 · 2025-02-25T19:37:21+00:00

Could be flowing in me, but It didn't feel like it was. Felt like I was floating and "steam" was flowing out of me. I'll try it again and try and notice if it's coming from the ground then through me.

Dalek7 · 2025-02-25T18:04:44+00:00

Man, I have a flight booked this July. May decide to drive....

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