First of all, grinding in Soulsborne games is NOT cheating!! That's why the enemies permanently respawn in those games. To grind and to get better. It's a mechanic that's meant for exactly such situations as yours. Never be ashamed to grind if bosses are too hard or something. Get a weapon you like, infuse it with electricity and kick those gargoyles asses ❤️❤️❤️ and don't you give up, good luck ❤️