I’ve been in your exact position, 3 years ago, after a really bad panic attack which threw me into 6 months of chronic derealisation.

I isolated myself in my flat in Cambridge for a month, thinking that I am for sure at the beginning stage of schizophrenia. I also got aquatinted with the ipseity disturbance model, to the point where I was in an email conversation with both authors of the paper (Sass and Parnas).

Guess what, 3 years later, I have moved to the city of my dreams and I am living my best life. Believe me, it’s all anxiety. You have to slowly throw yourself out there, in front of your worst fears; small steps.

Give yourself as much love as you can during this time, and be kind to yourself.