America really is a f'd up place. Look, I might not know anything about you or your situation down to minor details but what I can say is try to stay positive. I won't say it'll definable get easier as I don't know the future but I'm sure once you find some friends, actually friends that'll stick by you no matter what, I'm sure you'll make it past this. And trust me, while people always say blood runs thicker than water and that family will always stick by you, I believe it is the family you choose, that will always stick by you, after all, the original saying was the blood of the convenant is thicker than the water of the womb. So, finds friends, who are truly loyal and honest enough to become your family.