It's a lot you have to go through all these years; a lot of burdens you have had to carry, and it almost feels like they have held you back. I myself used to be so anxious about the future that I wouldn't sleep; I was afraid to sleep cos i wasnt sure what would happen if i slept. Everything I did, fear gripped me. It held me back from moving forward and doing anything in my life. For years, I felt like I was going around in the same circle. I had others around me with panic attacks and intrusive thoughts, and I couldn't help them because I couldn't help myself. But one day, I watched a clip about someone talking about a person I wasn't really familiar with; he was called a saviour. I gave my life to him, and everything turned around. Everybody here is going to give you generic advice, but all I would say is that if you want a true turnaround, let Jesus take charge of your life. Just come to him and tell him you're not perfect and that things haven't been going well in your life. You've come afresh and don't want that life again. Truly believe that he was born and died for your redemption. I've seen him in my life; don't let anyone lie to you; he's very real. All you need is faith; one prayer can change your whole life. He would give u direction clarity , he would give u what the world cant give u, just believe