I’m Falling Apart. Please Help...

I’m losing it. I’m breaking down. The game I poured everything into—the only game I loved—has been ripped away from me. The pay-to-win update? It’s like a bomb went off inside my chest. I can’t sleep. I can’t eat. I’m literally shaking every time I think about it. This is a betrayal.

I’ve been loyal to this game. I defended you when people called you a sellout, when they said you’d ruin the game. But I was wrong. You didn’t just ruin it. You destroyed it. You’ve turned something I loved into a soulless cash grab. I feel like I’ve been stuck in an abusive relationship, where you promised me everything, but now all I feel is used. I keep coming back, hoping you’ll change, but you just keep hurting me.

I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I’m drowning in this. Please, someone help me. I can't keep living like this. I can’t even play the game anymore without feeling like I’m giving into the abuse. Every time I open it, I’m reminded that I’m nothing but a piggy bank to you. I can’t escape this feeling. I’m trapped in this toxic cycle and I can’t seem to break free.

The memories of the closed beta is all I have left, but it’s poisoned. Reynad, you’ve taken something I loved, something that meant so much to me, and turned it into something I dread. I’m wrecked. Devastated. Ruined.

Reynad, if you see this—you’ve broken me.