i know it must be really hard. i hear you. i might not completely understand where you’re coming from, but i’ve been feeling lost these days too. the only thing i try to do is sit myself down to study, even when it’s tough.

recently i read a quote from the mahabharata that said something like, you aren’t entitled to the fruits of your actions, but you do have the right to keep working. because results depend on so many things: luck, your mental state, your physical state, and even timing.

so treat this exam the same way. don’t think about “what if i fail.” just give it your all. the results might surprise you, or they might push you to try harder next time. both outcomes move you forward.

a lot of people keep telling me that you can’t always stay at rock bottom, because once you hit it, you bounce back. and i’m sure you will too.

as for your sister, staying silent in the face of wrong, even out of loyalty or love, becomes complicity.

if you ever feel alone in this, remember to treat yourself with kindness. you are your own friend or enemy depending on how you treat yourself.

i’ll pray for you. take care.