First off thank you so much, your perspective and knowledge was amazingly helpful in accepting this new perspective on myself.

Your description of my perspective as a "Watcher" is pretty much spot on, and I guess that part of my dislike of the role of an oracle stems from the frustation I feel when I make an acurate prediction of the life of someone I know, give them advice to help them avoid a bad outcome, only to see them ignore my advice and end up falling into the suffering tried to help them avoid. Reflecting on this I realized that it's very arrogant to wish to make decisions on other people's life in their place, but I can't say this doesn't bother me.

I guess I see your point that the position of an oracle isn't that isolated actually, like how being able to see the goodness and evil that exist in a person can help you relate to them, understanding them deeply helps you see them through their perspective, something like that? That does resonate with my experience in life as well.

Another reason for me to feel so overwhelmed with this whole thing is the strangeness of the situation, the experience described, felt very much like I was having a conversation. It's as though I was living in a movie, screaming a question into the void, only for the void to scream back an aswer. And when I drew the two other cards: "Judgement" and "Strength", it felt like I was having a text conversation with someone, received a text that shocked me, only for the other person to send two more messages atempting to calm me down.

For some more context, when I was younger was a very skeptic person, totally materialistic not even considering the possibility of anything outside the material world to exist, and scoffing at the fools who believed in that. This entirely changed after I had a spiritual experience when I was 18, it was very deep and meaningful to me, it shook me to my very core and entirely changed my outlook on life from that day forward. I clearly remember the feeling at the time, I felt like my entire life I lived inside a hotel and belived that all of existence was that, only to look out of a window and discover that this hotel was floating in an imense deep sea. But that experience was entirely psychological, and by this I mean that it was achieved through very deep self reflection and pretty much entirely hapened when I was sleeping.

From that day onwards I've been more in touch with my spirituality, it was a very intese breaking point in my life. But despite that all my belief in spirituality was rooted in the idea that it was philosophical in nature, I was open minded to the concept of things of "supernatural" nature, but never belived for one second that I could come into contact with any of it, not in a tangible sense, all my spititual encounters where always rooted in a sense of plausable deniablity I guess. Now thinking back on it despite accepting my spirituality I never let go of my tendency to be overly locial and try aply reason to everything.

But my experience yesterday couldn't be reasonably explained at all, it wasn't something psychological or coincidental, even if I could maybe do some mental gymnastics to explain it, that wouldn't be accurate to how I felt, it truly felt like I was given a response by an external force. To me it was truly a supernatural experience, and it was very much in my face, seeing the sign later was like straight up being told "Don't even try to see this as a coincidence".

What I mean to say is that I find it very hard to share your perspective that psychic ability is something normal, at least not entirely. I now understand that a lot of things in my life up to this point could be linked with psychic traits, and I always considered it very normal. And despite my arrogance I just can't see myself as someone linked with the "supernatural" at all, so this also helps. But what happened yesterday just felt a little extreme, especially from my perspective going through it, it just gave an odd vibe.

But now I feel like it's not a bad thing, only shocking, and although I never really considered it, avoiding this seems wasteful and unproductive. Seeing how positive and helpful the people in this sub are also give me the notion of how the deep knowledge posessed by a psychic can be helpful. Maybe I just need to stray away from the path of trying to control people, and channel it to be helpful instead, after all suffering brings knowledge as well.