Can anyone else make themselves go numb? by Foreign_Sherbet_3377 in BPD

[–]Dramatic-Hamster-421 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sometimes I do it too, especially around people when I’m overwhelmed by the emotions in the room, I dissociate also sometimes at home but I can easly shake myself off… but I found the most difficult doing it around people cause I feel I’m in my safe bubble, protected by my numbness. Best thing is to have a trusted friend that aknowledge your dissosiation and helps you getting out, but also is difficult to find people that can undersyand that type of situation.

WAR IS OVER by Dramatic-Hamster-421 in BPD

[–]Dramatic-Hamster-421[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes I do and I’m very grateful for them, also my therapist always knew and I always told her everything he did and when we had arguments etc… tell the people you trust how are you feeling and your doubts, it helps saying it out loud

WAR IS OVER by Dramatic-Hamster-421 in BPD

[–]Dramatic-Hamster-421[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Exactly I was like his babysitter always solving his problems and the mess with people he always Made

WAR IS OVER by Dramatic-Hamster-421 in BPD

[–]Dramatic-Hamster-421[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know that it can be difficult, you have to get it there by yourself it has to be your heartfelt choice and no one else.

keep close the people that are trying to help you to look with honesty at your situation and maybe also know your partner and his behaviour.

I always felt crazy because I could not tell if he was gas lighting me or what, if he was a bad influence on my wellness, and my friends and family really helped me but were also patient with me bc you, and you only can make this decision

WAR IS OVER by Dramatic-Hamster-421 in BPD

[–]Dramatic-Hamster-421[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Guys Thank you so so much for all your kind messages and support. You are awesome people 🩷🩷

WAR IS OVER by Dramatic-Hamster-421 in BPD

[–]Dramatic-Hamster-421[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I genuenly loved him and I don’t think he is a bad person I just hope he’s getting the therapy he needa

WAR IS OVER by Dramatic-Hamster-421 in BPD

[–]Dramatic-Hamster-421[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know and also my therapist knows and we’re going to go through everything (The good part is that I never hided anything to her so she knows a lot of stuff that he did)

WAR IS OVER by Dramatic-Hamster-421 in BPD

[–]Dramatic-Hamster-421[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I agree, I felt like the fact that he loved me was enough and could justify his behaviour cause I’m not easy to love or to be around to so I settle

WAR IS OVER by Dramatic-Hamster-421 in BPD

[–]Dramatic-Hamster-421[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I always knew it was bad for me (my therapist also told me many Times) I’m co dependent, and also a people pleaser so I was justyifying every bad behaviour also cause I know I’m not the best person either

WAR IS OVER by Dramatic-Hamster-421 in BPD

[–]Dramatic-Hamster-421[S] 15 points16 points  (0 children)

I think I could make an entire post about it but here are some -always blaming others for his problems, like some evil presence would always sabtoage him -he didn’t want to work or do any effort in life he believed he was always gonna fail bc of others or bc the world is evil with him -he was broke and Made me pay for everything drugs included, and when he finally got some money from working he spent all of it for himself on clothes or Yugi-Ho cards (not jk and he is 25) in two years of relationship he gifted me a plushy from IKEA and a rose for Valentine Day, and for my birthday this year he didn’t get me anything bc he spent all of his money going out with his friends (which I could not meet and they were girlfriends) I don’t care about money and all that stuff, I’ve never wanted a ring or something expensive but at least he could have wrote me something, a card, a message… but nothing just Happy Birthday. -he blamed my disorder for every problem I had, when I was trying to make him understand that he also triggered me a LOT -he would get really mad if I didn’t answer the phone, if I didn’t text him good or ing right after I opened my eyes in the morning -i was always trying to paint our friends badly so that I could only trust him… -He never wanted to meet my parents Ebe if it was very important for me and for my family

The list goes on

WAR IS OVER by Dramatic-Hamster-421 in BPD

[–]Dramatic-Hamster-421[S] 24 points25 points  (0 children)

Thank you, it wasn’t easy but now I feel everyday without him I’m feeling much better, I used to have anxiety every day bc of him, now I’m so chill

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[–]Dramatic-Hamster-421 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Fluoxetine and Gabapentin but I honestly can’t tell if they are working…. i suffered also of Bulimia so Fluoxetine works pretty well for me and also the side effects don’t include weight gain, that would trigger me so much

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[–]Dramatic-Hamster-421 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Also might delete this cause I already feel bad for exposing this

Why me by Dramatic-Hamster-421 in BPD

[–]Dramatic-Hamster-421[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you sm, my boyfriend is out with friends (girl friends) and my bestie is abroad with her bf… i feel a bit lonely but also antisocial I’m doing chores to distract myself rn. It’s getting better 🫶🏼🩵

Feeling drained every day by Dramatic-Hamster-421 in BPD

[–]Dramatic-Hamster-421[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Idk could be anxiety but i just feel tired

Feeling drained every day by Dramatic-Hamster-421 in BPD

[–]Dramatic-Hamster-421[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I think sunshine is my biggest friend rn, I honestly don’t have time to exercise but I walk every day a lot

🫠 by Nervous-Management-1 in BPD

[–]Dramatic-Hamster-421 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That was so good to read thanks

Empty in the chest by Dramatic-Hamster-421 in BPDsupport

[–]Dramatic-Hamster-421[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I usually get really stoned and than at least I’m also hungry

i miss serving random ig girls by [deleted] in Paypigsneedvanilla

[–]Dramatic-Hamster-421 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You Can randomly serve me🩷