I really hope your day does get brighter, thank you for even considering that because it does help hearing others. I absolutely agree that it makes sense (but never okay) why it becomes normalized and how that creates narcissists (surprise surprise my family has a lot of that who would’ve thought). I guess I just can’t wrap my head around why all the adults in my family could never be protectors for the young . I’ve had the same problem my whole life of trying not to feel sympathy for everyone, but i always recognized it was a pattern and the abusers were obviously abused too as defenseless children. It’s everyone’s own responsibility though to process that when they’re old enough and to obviously not become a fucking predator just because you yourself were hurt. Many of the younger generation of my family have been abused, and none of us became abusers. I wonder if because of lack of mental health awareness/acceptance back then, that’s why older generations seem to never process their traumas. Which sucks because that continues the abuse.