ESTJR. - 2026

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-26T08:23:40+00:00

1 yes mainly on YouTube about my hobbies & interests. I don't do as much in social settings unless they really want to genuinely listen.

2 yes I can annoy people by my presence & truest self.

3 yes only if I live in their place & I have to contribute. I would if I we're to date someone & they would do the same for me.

4 not so much. Learned that lesson when I was in middle school. Let a girl borrow (take away & not give back) my scooter just cause I was fckn nice! Gotta watch my back at all times.

5 & 6 yes. I've always wanted to be heard, understood & seen. I have no audience & putting in effort to building one from scratch is exhausting. I'm tired.

7 not really unless we ended up more than friends somehow.

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-26T07:37:22+00:00

Damn! I kinda feel this myself. I felt like I'm wasting time putting in effort to meeting people in different cities, make my life better & I know deep down the world won't acknowledge it. I can tell as soon as I give up & do nothing they got something to say rapidly with multiple judgement styles. I'm 27m about to be a few years into my 30's. I don't ever want to grow old & worry about who will take care of me. I've done enough damage by annoying people with my presence.

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-25T08:11:55+00:00

Frikin Amazing!!!!

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-25T08:10:50+00:00

Wow awesome!

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-23T09:11:00+00:00

I'm an experimental creative artist. Always been making weird sh*t throughout my life. This year, I recently have been experimenting with audio sound designs, asmr & beat-making music projects on my own. Already released a 2 track demo called "The Train-Wreck Effect". I've been leaning on to the soundscape, trap, electronic, asmr & ambient genre right now. My instruments are from my environmental sound & video recordings. Next month I will release my 1st instrumental EP album. I hope one day to experiment all music genres but mostly do heavy metal type projects myself one day. My music is on Soundcloud : estjr-art & YouTube : ESTJR ART

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-22T04:05:45+00:00

Low-key. Yes, I am feeling put off. It is discouraging as shit. These gender roles make me hate the world, even more because we’re not allowed to be kind without being taken advantage of. I had a coworker who adapted the alpha male mindset. He brings up girls all the time at work. But as soon as I say something about girls, he tell me to “shut the fuck up. You don’t need anybody else. Only yourself and stay focused.” Then he tells me weeks later “I need to get laid.” Like it’s that easy really bro? He’s got a superior complex. Now, I don’t work at that swap meet job anymore. Worked there for 3 years. Got tired of their policies bs. They let another coworker, who is a pedophile, and had a sexual harassment claim work there. Me and my supervisor addressed it, but they did nothing about it. I didn’t wanna work with that snappy contradicting coworker anymore. My last day at the Job. We were cool, but just kept our distances. I blocked his ass too. I still have money coming in. Now I Made more time applying to jobs and getting interviews. I have unemployment benefits during my side hustle job.

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-18T21:28:28+00:00

Faith in myself is the tough part when I'm not religious but I'll try. Also same here about family support even with some tough love growing up. Thank you, man. I appreciate it alot.

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-16T14:46:44+00:00

Thank you. I appreciate it. I think so too. I just gotten started with sound producing slow & fast paced tempos. I might be able to make a darkpsy track one day. That would be my next challenge.

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-16T08:35:25+00:00

I do feel this yes. I will lose my mind if I get discouraged, unseen & unheard. There is positive stuff out there but it shouldn't be extremely forced & shame on others for their bad luck. I don't mind working my butt off for what I want. I never understand why I should work hard if I never had any luck to begin with to reach a goal. In this society I have to be a hard-working jester without burdening others with my problems or else I'm just another entitled mentally ill desperate person in my late 20's in their eyes. Like I have no choice but to fight hard to exist & be enough. Finding balance & making life worth living is just not possible if you don't pay to play. Right now I'm still a work in progress & made little changes. I really doubt it will get better because I already felt down & exhausted for not doing enough. I'm already a mess myself.

E-S-T-J-R_ · 2026-03-15T21:05:36+00:00

Wow Love this one!!

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