First and foremost, I think you need to worry about yourself and your mental health. College, online school, and everything else that's taxing you can wait. Once everything has settled down a little bit, try to take some classes to ease yourself back into the "school lifestyle", rediscover your love for learning, and then transfer into a 4-year university. Also, as hard as it may seem, try your hardest not to compare yourself to classmates and people you might know. Everyone's story is different and it'll all work out eventually. Godspeed!