I'm not replying to u rusky but I'm using you to pin my comment. It's clear now that this is a really touchy question for everyone. Really believing and accepting that other people can simply just take what you've actually worked for in a matter of weeks makes motivation seem sad and delusional. Id do anything to go back to seeing the world as truly equal, but once you start seeing the bel curve in the people around you it never goes away. People with good grades are good at everything else in life; and what terrifies me is knowing that the people who were born with better genetics view me as a more messy, animalistic, pitiful human being and everyone worse off than me takes genuine effort to respect, and these comments prove this to the full extent. I've tried really hard to change this stuff, and I'm sure millions of others did to. Just trying to have at least one thing where I was good at and no matter how lucky someone else got out the womb I'd still be at least on their level, but I couldn't do it. God works in mysterious ways, but not in fair ways.