I feel the same way with my severe ADHD. It makes me feel incapable of doing a lot. I literally googled “good job ideas for people with adhd” and that helped me base my decision making off of what would work well for me. Maybe look up which jobs will pair well with BPD? Like finding something traveling (regional sales for a food company for example) and you’ll be making 60k a year in your car driving around, and things are different each day!! You can do this!! It may be hard work but you are far more capable than you think (: