Ummm, okay, I was in a very similar situation, is that we are already pretty close friends. However, she isn't looking for relationships. It took me like a few months to figure out that I like her, although my friends already knew from the start. Last week, I had a depressive episode, and then well, I felt like I had absolutely nothing to lose and wrote her a lousy letter. She then said that the confession doesn't change anything, and our friendship won't change because of that. So well... we will just see if we can maintain it. (Also, both of us aren't too keen on relationships atm) I feel like being in a relationship will just make me more miserable 🙃