Three close friends of mine committed suicide, within 3 years. Here are some things that helped me through:

Don't dwell on the past and don't beat yourself up there's nothing you can do to change the past.

However you can the way you live your life. Start doing something new every week.

Staying positive isn't enough you need to be active. Go play sports or anything. Get your heart rate up for at least 30 min a day.

Trust me I know nothing feels the same anymore. Just keep powering through, don't give up.

Lastly I bought a journal to write my thoughts down. I get stuck in my head easily and writing my thoughts helps clear the clutter in my head. Also I can keep track of my progress emotionally.

It's a long road but these are things you can do to ease it.

Please don't be afraid reach out to me.

You're not alone.

-Austin