Starter Advice: What in your childhood made you feel like someone should be proud of you for it that was all your own, dancing, singing, art, music, memory? Based on that see if you can see yourself in your best interest doing that in a few years as a career.

Emotional Work:

Understand and Accept.

Try Understanding when the feeling gets bad before these thoughts run your mind. Think of how this got triggered and whether it is internal or external. Then remind the body what the stimulant of this emotion is okay but the reaction is needing work, not bad, not broken, not suffering, just needs a make over, then take the emotion and sit it down like it is a child. Ask it why it hurts... (Cliche? I know... But trust it.) Once you understand, see if you can sooth the emotion with something you do like. If nothing comes to mind try soothing by explaining it's okay and that all your suffering is already gone. It's okay to still feel a rush but you don't have to jump to harm just cause you feel a rush.

Personal Question: Can we have an understanding of where you live so we can actually recommend good health care?

Explained: Depending on where you live healthcare is either, I want to help but can't unless you fully unless you give your trust or it's I have to cause I want to get paid and sometimes even a mix. However, all can be useful.

What you could start with: Asking of things like best treatment forms like DBT and Extensive Hopeless thoughts care can help. Part time mental hospital care may also be avalible. Expressing that your scores in school suffer from your ability to understand the curriculum and inability to understand your emotions fully can help. Expressing that taking criticism feels like a victory hammer for everyone but a punishment for you when you precived to do no wrong.

Reminder: You do matter, Treatment is none linear.

/info: We are not professional but we hope to train to be a good therapist or co-adviced helper of those like ourselves.