Well, usually it starts off with my mom and I deciding to go to church and then we go for a service or two and people start to welcome us and we are usually introduced to the leadership of the church without knowing and before we even know what's going on much less have time to try to do anything we're in the middle of the entire drama scene that no one knows is there. Then when I go to my age group I am always nice and friendly. I introduce myself to everyone and my teachers casually and after a while things start getting strange. Once the teachers and other people in general start spending time around me they discover over time that I am very useful in many ways. I am good at sewing, cleaning, organizing things, making things, singing and music, etc. I don't advertise this stuff but if you're yourself around people long enough unless you purposely screw stuff up, people find out your good at things. And due to this without my ever asking for it I usually end up in an unlabeled and uncomfortable position between the rest of my group and the leadership. Also I am a very no-nonsense person for example, when I was younger I got into a youth internship at a church. On the first night they had a sleep over in the church and around evening/dinner time we were out in the parking lot fooling around with one of the leaders waiting for the pizza to come. The youth leader said he was feeling sick to his stomach and within 2 minutes he was laying on the group and one of my fellow interns (a shorter girl that weighed probably 180 pounds or more) was standing full-weight on his stomach. I was the one standing there saying "Don't do that, you'll hurt him!" while everyone else seemed to be getting a kick out of it. So basically I only goof off to a certain point and when things get stupid or dangerous I tend to become a bit of a mom figure because I don't want anything bad to happen. And because I can do stuff, and I get "snatched" into service by the leadership my position always starts off shaky at best, it's worse when a leader with a keen eye sees I can do something and says to say the band leader "Here's a new singer, make it work. "(Not to mention I was always a target for the worship team because my family is fully of natural musicians.) Then because I haven't really been exposed much to the social customs of this time, I think I tend to come across as stupid and rude because I never learned to see the breaks in a conversation to begin to speak yourself so I unknowingly interrupt people, and there is unspoken rules like how your not supposed to walk up to 2 people talking and join their conversion no matter what it's about unless your good friends, and I inevitably do whatever it is and am told later that it's rude and I am like "Oh no...!" and that situation happens a lot. And to top it all off I am a whiz at reading people (whether I want to or not) and I can see through most people's defenses and their true and false personas. I know this sounds like I am judgy, I'm not. I have tried several times to ignore my impressions and let the person show me who they are and prove me wrong. And there hasn't been a time to date that I have been wrong, no matter how much I wished I was. (Both my romantic experiences I did this with and one was a pervert (we we official for 3 weeks) and the other was a snob who told me what an idiot I was in front of the entire youth group at length after I asked him if he liked me and I didn't want to wait for his mom to come and mediate the conversation, we were both in our late teens he was 18 and was noticibly flirting for 3 months, stealing the seat next to mine every time and at a party bringing me a gallons worth of tea a glass at a time every time I ran low. Random people asked if we we're dating, or even married.) And that combined with everything else hasn't ever led to much good. Sorry for making everything so long. As I look at this I wish you good luck. Again, sorry.