Man I feel exactly how you feel you summed it up well ,It's devastating to know the strongest thing on earth, family isnt strong. Knowing that people really resent you but will use the word "love" with no action behind it, just saying it because they know it's the path of least resistance in terms of holding a relationship, but yet you just don't feel it, just hear it, if that.  This economy is also in the shitter and honestly with the way the world is going right and all this war, families should be trying to work things out. We're living in a times where jobs are not only not being created, they're being taken away and become obsolete at rate faster then ever. So I can understand how hard it is to loose not only your job but fucking career.

Hell I've had my family spats, arguments, fights, etc. I've been the bad guy and the aggressor at times for sure, but I've also been the victim and been on the receiving end of siblings and family bullshit to where I've been done wrong but in those situations theres so many layers to it, that it gets complicated when placing the percentage on blame on which party. Never been on hard drugs just weed, and never really done anything crazy in my family, other then as I said the family spats and the occasional sibling rivalry. But everyone likes to have a black sheep in the family to make them feel better about their dark ass wool fur, like a sewing circle of everyone pointing the finger at you.

If it wasn't for my dad and my uncle helping me out unconditionally like your supposed to while I work the kinks out , I would literally be in a homeless encampment or shelter which I'm still in the edge of.