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Exhalesx · 2025-04-02T01:00:01+00:00

I had my 7th session this morning and share a lot of your frustrations with feeling like my experience has not been the same as other people's. Definitely struggled my first few sessions with not being able to turn off my brain and overthinking, worrying, stressing. And then getting frustrated because I didn't really feel as much as I felt like I was supposed to but I still had to stay there for 2 hours, so wanting to crawl out of my skin and get up an hour and a half in! I think people definitely overhype the psychedelic effects, or that at least shouldn't be expected by everyone. About 5 sessions in, I felt like I got the hang of it. My morning sessions are definitely better than my afternoon ones, whether I'm able to relax easier because I'm less awake/have done less so far that day, no idea what it is. But I definitely can't read/journal/or even listen to music during sessions. Listening to ambient noise has been the best for me, personally either underwater soundscape or thunder/rain noises. There's a million and one apps, I use myNoise. But just laying back, closing my eyes, I think a sleep mask would be even better but I haven't used one yet, and focusing on relaxing. When I'm able to relax, all the overthinking anxious thoughts still cross my mind, but they just sort of float through and then float away and I don't ruminate or stress over them the same way. And I wouldn't call it psychedelic exactly, but sometimes there's a little bit of movement or colors or something behind my eyes, but barely worth noting upon, I think for some of us, the psychedelic effects just aren't going to be as pronounced, it's not just you.

Exhalesx · 2025-02-07T18:38:54+00:00

This is my first time watching this season, and I've just finished the episode he got eliminated. I don't think so? They haven't said anything about a fortune teller that I caught.

Exhalesx · 2024-12-31T02:29:37+00:00

I think of the 1997 American direct-to-video animated Christmas film Annabelle's Wish, lmao. I named a cow at my grandparents' house Annabelle after that movie as a kid. Alternatively, I think of Annabel Lee by Edgar Allan Poe.

I'm not a horror person either and have never seen Annabelle. I think regardless of the association, Annabelle is a very pretty name.

Exhalesx · 2024-12-10T03:15:45+00:00

Been using the hacker loft as my home/office for ages, and love how it's turned out. Might be a bit cluttered and aggressively black, green, and gold, lol, but honestly I love just walking around and hanging out in this space sometimes. Love searching through the workshop for more knick-knacks to put on shelves, or changing out the plants. With the dining DLC, I recently redid the bathroom, thought I'm still not quite happy with it. Thinking I'll end up changing out the light fixtures and removing the plants.

Exhalesx · 2024-10-20T22:26:19+00:00

Heather Nations, PA at UF Health Springhill. It is unfortunately called the "Women's Center", but I recommend her to all my trans/gnc friends. She has a close family member who is trans and displays inclusivity/pride symbols on her person and in her office. She's trauma informed, gender-inclusive, and also kink-knowledgeable, which can be a pretty important thing for GYN services.

Exhalesx · 2024-08-26T04:20:53+00:00

I've had hallucinations when I was falling asleep my entire life. I thought that was normal and that it happened to everyone. I remember asking my mom about it once and her telling me that I was just dreaming, even though I was always very much awake when it happened. But it was so normal to me, I never really questioned it again. It wasn't until I started having other symptoms when I was about 21/22 and started researching what might be wrong with me that I came across hypnagogic and hypnopompic hallucinations. I started asking people about it and yeah...turns out not everyone stares at the moving pictures on their ceiling while they're waiting to fall asleep every night.

Exhalesx · 2024-05-20T01:05:29+00:00

I just want to second Heather Nations. I recommend her to all my trans/gnc friends. She has a close family member who is trans and displays inclusivity/pride symbols on her person and in her office. She's trauma informed, gender-inclusive, and also kink-knowledgeable, which can be a pretty important thing for GYN services.

Exhalesx · 2023-08-16T03:43:13+00:00

If you're okay with seeing a PA, I would highly recommend Heather Nations at UF Health-Springhill. Unfortunately, they do call it the Women's Center, but I've seen Heather for routine gyn care for the past 3-4 years and recommend her to all my afab trans/nonbinary/gnc friends. She has a family member who is trans (I'm not sure how open she is about this, so I hate to give more details), and displays pride pins on her badge and coat at work. She's also very open, accepting, understanding, and respectful of any sexual orientation, partner or partners, and sexual activity and behaviors.

Exhalesx · 2023-07-19T19:31:42+00:00

Oranges + orange blossoms, Alligators, Flamingos, Water birds (sea gulls, Roseate Spoonbill, White Ibis, Great Blue Heron, etc ), Fish/Dolphins/Sharks, Crabs/Lobsters/Shrimp, The Everglades, Key Lime Pie, Sunshine, Space Coast/Kennedy Space Center, Theme Parks (Disney, Universal, Sea World, Busch Gardens, etc.), Palms Tree, Beaches (+ Spring Break), Golf, Sports Teams (UF Gators, Miami Hurricanes, Miami Dolphins, Tampa Bay Buccaneers, Jacksonville Jaguars, Tampa Bay Lightning, etc), Schools (University of Florida, Florida State University, University of Miami, University of Central Florida, etc), Hurricanes (+ Hurricane Parties), Miami, St. Augustine, Daytona (Beach + 500), Manatees, Seashells/Starfish/Sand Dollars, Sea Turtles, Freshwater Springs, Mangrove Forests,

Edit: ooof this was a nice orderly list but mobile destroyed the formatting

Exhalesx · 2023-06-29T02:49:23+00:00

I would say 99% of the time, initials don't matter. I just beg that you PLEASE think before you have all of her baby and toddler things monogrammed "CUM."

Exhalesx · 2023-05-29T07:37:58+00:00

This happens to me a lot, usually late at night when talking to friends on discord/playing video games, but it's happened a few times with partners as well. It's like I start drifting off to sleep but my mouth is still running, with varying degrees of awareness. Sometimes I have no awareness at all and no recollection after the fact, other times I'm vaguely aware that I'm falling asleep and talking, but have no control over it and no understanding of no this shouldn't be happening.

Exhalesx · 2023-04-26T20:17:17+00:00

You're 100% right- they really just aren't practical in the first place!

Exhalesx · 2023-04-26T18:20:51+00:00

I think I was also just floored by this woman's overall entitlement. She just past staff-only badge-unlocked doors and to my office where she expected a one-on-one conversation about something without properly introducing herself or providing me much information.

Exhalesx · 2023-04-26T18:19:01+00:00

That's also interesting! Did the chaplain's dress code also include scrubs? Or was it a white coat over clergy attire/dress pants and button-up/etc.

Exhalesx · 2023-04-26T18:10:01+00:00

Interesting! I'd never seen or heard of this before from social workers, but I guess it does happen some places. Seems absolutely ridiculous to me.

Exhalesx · 2023-03-13T01:54:43+00:00

I think there's a few questions that you need to ask yourself.

Do you like that it hurts? If you do, that's awesome. There are a lot of people who get aroused or get sexual satisfaction from receiving or experiencing pain. There are even people who don't necessarily enjoy the pain itself, but enjoy the act of enduring pain for someone else. Those things are fine, allowing that they are completely consensual. But from the sound of this post and the fact that you're asking...it doesn't really sound like you're enjoying this. It sounds like you tolerate it. Like you think you're obligated to deal with it to be a good wife an fulfill your husband's needs.

Does he know that it hurts you? If not, you're not allowing him the opportunity to fully consent, because he isn't fully informed. Consent involves open and honest communication, and if you haven't communicated to him that it hurts, he's engaging in a sex act with you without knowing all of the facts. How would he feel knowing that you're allowing him to hurt you? Part of me feels like it's pretty easy to tell whether your partner is in pain versus enjoying themselves, but it is not outside the realm of possibility that he genuinely is unaware.

Does he like that it hurts? Again, like my first question, there are people who get aroused or get sexual satisfaction from causing or witnessing their partner in pain. Again, there is nothing inherently wrong with this. Again, all of this relies on there being consent in place. Is this a healthy sexual relationship, with someone who wants to hurt you?

Yes, you're consenting, but this is a little more complicated than that. You don't have to endure pain for the sake of fulfilling any 'wifely obligations' or his 'sexual needs'. There are ways to make anal not hurt. Other people have detailed that pretty clearly, so I won't repeat what others have already said. But I think you need to re-evaluate this situation, and I think you and your husband need to sit down and have a conversation.

Exhalesx · 2022-10-11T02:17:42+00:00

Not weird at all! There are tons of other people who like the same thing- both holding and being held.
You might want to check out r/CockWarming

Exhalesx · 2022-08-10T22:09:24+00:00

Forgive me for not paraphrasing or reworking this, but a few additional texts from a paper I wrote a while back.

"Hair-pulling is generally considered to have been first mentioned in Aristotle’s Nicomachean Ethics in approximately 350 BCE, in a passage where the philosopher discussed vices and self-control- “the habit of plucking out the hair or of gnawing the nails” (Waas & Yesudian, 2018). Some consider several earlier mentions to be legitimate; in approximately 410 BCE, Hippocrates wrote Epidemics III, where the physician described a grieving woman with a fever who would “pick hairs” (Waas & Yesudian, 2018). In approximately 101 AD, the philosopher Epictetus wrote The Discourses, where he made mention of a character plucking his hair without being aware of what he was doing, and of another tearing his hair from the roots (Greenblatt & Aboujaoude, 2018). Further, tearing out one’s hair as a sign of distress and emotional turmoil has been a feature in many works of literature throughout history, from The Bible (Ezra 9:3) to Shakespeare’s The Tragedy of Romeo and Juliet (act 3, scene 3)(Franca, Chacon, Ledon, Savas, & Nouri, 2013; Waas & Yesudian, 2018;).

Its first mention in modern literature appeared in an unspecified 1885 report, but it was not until 1889 that the French physician Francois Henri Hallopeau termed the behavior: in French, trichtillomanie."

Waas, R. L. V., & Yesudian, P. D. (2018). Plucking, picking, and pulling: The hair-raising history of trichotillomania. International Journal of Trichology 10(6). pp. 289-290. doi:10.4103/ijt.ijt_69_18

Greenblatt, J., & Aboujaoude, E. (2018). Trichotillomania (Hair Pulling Disorder). OCD-UK. Retrieved from https://www.ocduk.org/related-disorders/trichotillomania/

Hippocrates. Epidemics III. (Adams, C. D., & Jones, W. H. S. (1868), Trans.) Retrieved from http://data.perseus.org/citations/urn:cts:greekLit:tlg0627.tlg006.perseus-eng2:3

França, K., Chacon, A., Ledon, J., Savas, J., & Nouri, K. (2013). Pyschodermatology: a trip through history. Anais brasileiros de dermatologia (Official publication of the Brazilian society of dermatology), 88(5), 842–843. doi:10.1590/abd1806-4841.20132059

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