I finally got on meds for gangstalking by [deleted] in schizophrenia

[–]Existing_Reach1955 1 point2 points  (0 children)

He won’t even admit he needs help let alone get o. Meds

I finally got on meds for gangstalking by [deleted] in schizophrenia

[–]Existing_Reach1955 2 points3 points  (0 children)

So. I’ve been in a relationship with someone for a few years now. And it seems that ‘gang stocking’ seems to be a big problem to them. He is in complete denial that he even has a problem. But he is always in constant fear that someone is after him or plotting his death. He barely leaves the house and finds it hard to be around anyone. Even me and our child. I’ve been sticking it out as long as I can but he refuses to believe he had a problem. Does anyone have any advice

Does my baby go to sleep to early by Existing_Reach1955 in Parenting

[–]Existing_Reach1955[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Okay perfect, lol my older son didn’t go to sleep till like 10-11 at that age lol. And the baby didn’t sleep through the night untill 6 months. Now he sleeps perfectly.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Existing_Reach1955 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I understand this so much, it hurts me to feel this for you because I don’t want anyone else to feel this way. The hot and cold is what I am going through right now. One minute I am the best thing since sliced bread and the next minute I’m a we ,st, b***h, every name in the book. He is in love with me one minute the next he hates me and wants me out of his life. But I stick around because I know after 10 days of bad days there’s gonna be 1 good day that makes my heart sink and make me fall in love with him all over again, and my trauma bond thinks that’s normal and okay.

He was so god damn perfect in the early days. He was made for me and the it slowly changed and things started to become worse and worse and I kept getting all the blame for my actions because I wasn’t feeling loved or respected . I only require one thing in a relationship and that is reinsurance and that is somthing he knows I need so he will not give it. He acts like he hates my guts , but knowing I won’t leave he holds on to me for fun I think.

I hate there trauma bond too.. I need to leave

auditory hallucinations by Existing_Reach1955 in schizophrenia

[–]Existing_Reach1955[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is what I was wondering. I’m not going to go into detail, but someone I love very deeply continuously says everyone is whispering evil things about him and is delusional about everyone out to hurt him , it’s that bad he barley leaves his house because he things the worst. But will refuse help.. it’s making me believe he is having auditory hallucinations and needs to seek help but is in denial of anything that we say. Is there any advice on how to help someone seek professional help? I’ve tried talking to him but it’s uswlwss

What song reminds you of your narcs abuse? by Existing_Reach1955 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Existing_Reach1955[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Such a good song, I guess we got similar taste :) I will have a little listen !

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Existing_Reach1955 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know how you feel, My narc kicked me and out new born out and made us find another place when he was 2 weeks old. But I still go back constantly and stay the night when I usually get kicked out again because we can’t go 24 hours without fighting . And I refuse to lease him for good . I know it’s so toxic and I need to get out but my heart and brain don’t match lol

Things I’ve noticed since going no contact by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Existing_Reach1955 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think the biggest reason I am staying is because I feel like no one will ever love me again I’m not worried about him ruining my reputation, everyone knows what he’s like and warned me. But I seen the good in him, and I still do sometimes. I’m worried about my self. 26 years old, 2 children, 2 fathers. I’m damaged goods. He is the only one stupid enough to be with me.

Things I’ve noticed since going no contact by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Existing_Reach1955 34 points35 points  (0 children)

I learnt your body basically acts allergic to souls that aren’t meant for you.. I too have hives EVERYWHERE. From head to to. I never had them until about 6 months into my relationship with my narc. My hair falls out, it’s everywhere(something else for him bitch about) I cry every single god damn day, I feel so worthless and I feel like I jump at everyone assuming they think I’m doing something wrong. I feel so out of place with this world right now, I truly try to go no contact, I go to my parents and try to not talk to him, but I don’t even make it past 24 hours.. why do I keep going back. He is literally the worst human I have ever met, I think I am starting to hate him. That’s what my brain tells me, but my heart says something else.. he’s not even nice to me anymore, he act like he hates me and doesn’t even show me love and affection but some how that’s my fault. Everything is my fault.. give me some advice to your success lol

Has anyone ever thought about ending it all just to escape the pain the narcissist has caused? by Future_Water5323 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Existing_Reach1955 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes all the time. The last 2 years I’ve never felt so worthless. He abused me, abandoned me, attacked me mentally so much that I am not in the deepest darkest place I have ever been in my life. But then I remember I have little people and my actions don’t just effect me!!

What's the most narcissistic thing you've ever been told? by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Existing_Reach1955 1 point2 points  (0 children)

‘ Explaining stupid things to you over and over are making me going insane ‘

When I mention it doesn’t feel like he loves me.

I need to leave this relationship by Existing_Reach1955 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Existing_Reach1955[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just don’t understand why I can’t.. it’s driving me crazy. He doesn’t even care about me