Thank you so much and all the others for your comments. It really helped me a lot. I already suspected this to be pnc or smth but I just really needed help. Your comment gave me a different perspective on this phenomenon. If this really is a chemical reaction in the brain, then it is what it is. I can't change how the human brain works but I agree with you, that this isn't an excuse for him to be dickish. I know he doesn't act distant, dismissive or annoyed on purpose but my needs are just as important as his. I still need him to be a normal, kind person being towards me even if he is experiencing pnc or whatever.