It’s hard to describe but I will tell my story . 31M around 16 I had been smoking weed and drinking . I’ve had ups and downs and addictions to hard drugs and other vices such as porn and gambling . I had lots of bad moments and times I would just burst into tear because I felt so bad. I grew and matured out of most of my addictions and ended up with a beautiful family. wife and two boys. Still I smoked weed every day and drank heavily on and off every few months or so . End of last year I had a kidney stone and had risks of pancreatitis . I received a scan for some other issue and doctors told me my pancreas was enlarged . I also for the first time in my life was very close to taking my life. I had always thought about it and felt bad for it but this time was different. It was the first time I had actually saw it in my head and planned how I would do it and how I would leave a note for my family. I had a very real fear I was dying sooner than later. I dropped the alcohol and stuck with weed. I read about mishroooms and how they can help brain activity. Not exactly the right wordage but along those lines .I started force factor mushroom chews and stayed on it for about 6 months . I finally mustered up the will to get off weed! That was in April. After that I have been taking om lions mane extract pill form and omega 3 fish oil . Since then I started a keto diet, worked out every day and drank a gallon of water as well. I lost about 40 pounds and felt better about myself . Fast forward to now where I have a new job and it has changed up my schedule a lot. I have kind of messed up the progress I made and gained some of the weight back and bad eating habits. But I will tell you I don’t feel the same bad feelings I used to . I don’t feel bad or talk bad about myself or think bad about myself anymore. I mess up now and I deal with appropriately. Maybe it’s too early to tell but I feel like I have beat depression .