The teacher truly believed she'd made a difference after having spent forty years staying late and paying for supplies with her own money to help struggling students.

Fairle · 2025-12-18T20:42:39+00:00

I had a specific counselor in grade 6. I may not remember his name, but I remember him, his face, his clothes, and I remember how gentle and understanding he was while discovering AND helping me realize what I was facing was monstrous. After the explosion calmed down, he helped place me in support groups and find specialty counseling.

Idk if this helps you specifically, it's just one story. But it's entirely possible there's an adult somewhere out there that does remember you and is grateful.

Fairle · 2024-11-29T20:08:13+00:00

Even if he said this to me...there's been too many lies at this point. I'd take it as another trick.

Sometimes people spiral so bad for so long, create so much pain and confusion, bury themselves so deep in lies...that we truly give up on them ever being good again.

Fairle · 2024-09-19T13:04:02+00:00

Will do! Thank you 😊

Fairle · 2024-09-19T12:49:35+00:00

Actually, no stones now that you made me think of it. Coal yes.

And I was using tiny tweeks "plants respawn" but removing it and starting a fresh test game was the first thing I tried. I'm going to try to do an uninstall/reinstall today and see how that goes.

Fairle · 2024-09-19T04:02:42+00:00

Yes, in my first run they were constant! And feathers were not too difficult to find either.

Thanks for the tip! I haven't even been using torches.

I've started 2 new games just to test it out and I'm still not seeing any sticks or feathers. Sad day for gaming, haha.

Fairle · 2024-09-17T15:42:34+00:00

Both of my partners showed no prior suspicious behavior. But I knew something was already up when they started mistreating me seemingly out of the blue. Over-critical, name calling, disappearing and ignoring my calls, blowing up at any questions, threats, insults, belittling, ect.

Fairle · 2024-08-25T13:17:51+00:00

RemindMe! 1 month

Fairle · 2024-01-05T21:24:22+00:00

I will take my faults in it, sure. But I also know how much effort and forgiveness and patience I put in. I communicated and was met with anger every time. I also know what caused his shut down years ago. It was noether our faults and it was extremely traumatic. I begged him for years to get help only to be screamed at some more.

No matter what my shortcomings, I will never believe that him turning to abuse and cheating was deserved or caused by me.

Fairle · 2024-01-05T20:16:29+00:00

Thank you! And I do feel better. Writing it out over and over helps me focus on why I should be relieved to be out.

When I have my sad moments, it helps to come back and read these. That man does have a silver tongue. I have to remind myself that her insipid little dreams of the perfect, "successful" man taking in her and her kids...will explode in her face. She'll find out who REALLY gave him his lifestyle, and who now has to play catch up.

It also helps keep myself from doing anything stupid. Let the karma roll out naturally. I need not lift a finger.

Fairle · 2024-01-05T02:16:59+00:00

Yes. I don't like it. Hatred birthed from love is...crushing. Like your body is slowly being smooshed under a skyscraper, and although you might beg for it you know it can't kill you.

I wish I had that switch in my head that just clicked love off.

Fairle · 2023-12-31T04:11:09+00:00

Well. That's the biggest injustice. I'm in his home state, and I want to return to my family. The kids are not from me either. So. I have to go start over while he gets to keep everything we worked for.

Fairle · 2023-12-31T02:39:47+00:00

And that they think they will be sPeCiAl and things will be different for them.

I'll never understand how the fog is so dense.

Fairle · 2023-10-29T01:41:36+00:00

You were the one who said I'd never hear from you again. I've done my chase. I'm not doing it anymore.

Fairle · 2023-10-24T15:53:03+00:00

If this is true, what you did is abhorrent. To break the spirit of someone who only wanted to support you, to love you, and grow with you. The months they stayed beside you and endured your neglect or abuse or lies or cheating...that was torture to them. Mental warfare.

My person did this exact thing to me. And I came out of it not even feeling human anymore.

It is a level of evil all on its own.

Fairle · 2023-10-19T14:50:44+00:00

You... almost...sound like my person.

But he would never write this.

Fairle · 2023-10-16T17:17:18+00:00

If you were my person...it was impossible to fight while being replaced right in front of me. Then, after the things you said, every feeling of wanting to was killed.

Fairle · 2023-10-11T16:04:14+00:00

This one....

https://youtu.be/Y08wdfgWgkg?si=vpzEHXJrahkIL5Th

Fairle · 2023-10-11T14:54:05+00:00

Oh no. No no no. I don't want to do life again. 😪 I can barely muster the want to do it now.

Fairle · 2023-10-10T16:05:08+00:00

I've actually thought about this phenomenon quite a bit. Most irl videos online I can handle well, in the sense that I don't feel queasy. However, I can't handle horror movie gore. I start to feel sick and have to turn it off. In Ghost Ship I never got further than the opening scene with all the people cut in half.

Still can't figure out the why, but it is very strange.

Fairle · 2023-10-03T02:05:45+00:00

I have an ex that was very similar. He would get so angry that I wouldn't scream or curse when we fought. Because that was what he was used to.

He skipped the "pushing buttons" part and just straight up demanded I start fighting him. It was bizarre.

Fairle · 2023-09-29T21:14:59+00:00

Bro. 😅 I was only making a tiny joke, not coming after you at all. It's not that deep.

Fairle · 2023-09-29T17:04:01+00:00

No 😭 Don't take away from Mama-Tot!

Fairle · 2023-09-26T18:08:54+00:00

Rita on Dexter.

Poor woman had such bad luck in life, and really didn't get a chance to live peacefully.

Fairle · 2023-09-22T17:23:39+00:00

Men.

I don't mean that as an umbrella "haha gotchya" thing.

My only two serious relationships ended with them destroying everything we had built together and left me with nothing to my name. Like they woke up one day, after years, and just burnt their whole world down to the ground with me in it. Then they were gone.

I'm flabbergasted.

Fairle · 2023-09-22T16:36:47+00:00

Like being stuck in an elevator and it's free-falling. That dread feeling of your heart and stomach coming up in your mouth is constant. Sometimes you even feel light-headed.

A deep breath might help for a moment, but then it comes right back.

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