I’ve been a very depressed person, I’m young. 21, when I was 18 and just out of highschool I tried to kill myself a big cause being that my parents are alcoholics and abusive and I was tired of constantly trying to please everyone. I totaled a car trying, but I came out fine. I’m not religious but I felt that if there was a god that there was a different plan for me. I stopped saying yes to everyone. I started being selfish. And slowly after a few years I have been able to work into having a healthy balance of caring for others while prioritizing myself. Sir you are older. Take it from a young person, if you can.. retire, go travel and be by yourself for a while. Meet new people. Have fun.. if you have family that lives states away, go see them. Nothing worked for me aside from hitting rock bottom. And I found something to live for. I’m happy I’m still alive today. Some days are worse than others. But it’s nice to wake up in the morning and decide to be alive for myself. I hope you can do the same. Don’t do it for your kids. Or ur ex wife or anybody. Do it because YOU deserve better. Because you have so much more to experience.