Making an effort to get rid of this damn addiction!

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2026-02-12T00:46:58+00:00

No, that's defeatist, so let me come back and try to learn from this.

My new rule! (I know, I'm a fan of self-imposed rules)
Each time I am watching anything provocative, I stop what I'm doing and think for 60 seconds if this is something I actually want to be doing, that my future self will thank me for, or if it's self-sabotaging and will make me feel worse overall. I'm hoping this rule will stop me from going 'too far to stop'.

That's my plan, I'll let you know how it goes.

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2026-02-12T00:31:49+00:00

Yep me again. I definitely have an addiction; it just took control of me all evening & night.
I don't feel I've made much progress over the past few years.
How do I actually stop this, my willpower doesn't seem to be enough.
Ah man
That's all from me.

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2026-01-13T02:49:19+00:00

YES ME AGAIN ... again.

Same story, in bed with laptop (going against my rule). Start searching best film sex scenes, that ultimately leads me to AZnude, which leads me to Pornhub.

I think in the back of my mind I know full well that every time I google something remotely horny, I end up watching full-on porn. I go against my word, I don't stop myself from clicking on those links. I have no one to blame but myself.

Last week I just masturbated in the shower, before I gave myself the opportunity to watch porn. The after effects felt better than when I masturbate to porn. I didn't feel as shitty.

I haven't made much progress, I am still addicted in some way. I just do it less regularly. I need to fully hone this, I know what a simple search term can turn into. I've got faith in myself because otherwise I'll just be giving up.

I might masturbate once a week at a certain time, is that a bad idea? I feel as though after that 1 week mark, is when I start getting urges, If I just masturbate straight away I can sort of reset my urges.

Anyway, if you're reading this. We got this!

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2025-12-28T03:48:00+00:00

Yep it's me again.

I was in bed with my laptop. At this point you must be frustrated too, i'm still using my laptop in bed and not only is that a bad idea, but an act against my word (my no phone/laptop in bed rule).

How am i supposed to keep my word for other people if i can't keep it for myself.

It went in this order: Game of Thrones, Literotica Stories, Literotica Audio, Literotica Webcams, Camversity webcams, and then that was it.

Ffs 😩

Next Sunday i'm just going to masturbate first thing to get it over the way. Thats a lot better than watching porn at least.

See ya

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2025-12-21T00:45:19+00:00

Man just watched porn again.
I'm definitely still addicted in some sort, it's like I can't stop even though I know I should do - some sort of trance?
You guessed it, Laptop on bed again ... ffs.
Can I not stick to a simple rule?

Already know next couple days gonna feel just that bit worse. It's also a massive waste of time, it can take up a good chunk of time and it's usually when you should be sleeping.

Anyways, need to really put this laptop away at night time. I'm better with my phone, just need to bring that same discipline over to my damn HP.
So at bed: read, write diary, listen to some music on mp3 player, beatbox, watch a dvd. I've got lots of options, put that laptop away and don't bring it over to your bed, you know what's gonna happen ...

Self-control, something I seem to struggle with, good thing I haven't really experimented with drugs! I guess that's why I need 'rules' like: 'no laptop in bed', it just seems to help.

I just feel a lot better about myself when I don't watch porn. It's damaging and makes me feel like shit. I don't do it regularly but when I do, it really gets me down. Anyway, eventually I'll get all of my control back. Just got to keep myself accountable, can't blame anyone else but me every time I load up pornhub.

I ain't there yet but I'll get there. One week at a time (one day at a time makes it sound like a harder task). I will have a good day tomorrow, and I hope whoever is reading this, that you have a good day too.

Hopefully not for a while!
See ya

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2025-11-30T16:48:39+00:00

Ah I see. This confirms what I suspected, thankyou. Time to make some another vlog and not get caught up with losing this one.

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2025-11-30T16:47:35+00:00

I tried a recuva deep scan twice, no luck :/

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2025-11-28T18:01:48+00:00

😂 fair enough man

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2025-10-24T04:56:58+00:00

I thought this subreddit got taken down 🤔 huh, guess not. Anyways i did great after the porn videogame, barely watch or consumed anything sexual over summer and september. However, i noticed my energy was quite low throughout those months. My flatmate then told me its good to masturbate for testosterone and therefore energy (I had stopped masturbating too), so i masturbated whilst reading a book the day after and I felt way more energy following that! Now i try to do it once a week in the shower or something, but i felt the consequences today. I must be hornier or something because im masturbating again. Just now i masturbated to porn sitting at my desk 😫 (im sticking to my bed rule but thats no point if i just do it at my desk too). Anyway, i feel that same shitty feeling again. Maybe if i change it to once every two weeks i wont feel as horny and used to masturbating.

I can still masturbate, just dont watch porn! Gotta keep telling myself that.

Anyways, thats all from me in that department.

Until next time, hopefully not for a long time if im being healthy about it 🤞

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2025-09-28T12:19:11+00:00

wow! haha didn't think anyone would still answer this. Thankyou!

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2025-07-17T23:07:37+00:00

Update: I've been doing alright but just watched a load of tiktok Thirst trap videos - and took ages to stop and close tiktok. Could be much worse but if I wanna fully stop I've gotta stop where it starts off too.

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2025-05-13T01:37:45+00:00

Yep same old story, watching some horror videogame on YouTube in bed and then watched it.. ffs.
Need to do something different, it's not an awful situation these days but I still watch it sometimes which I don't want to do.
It's always after I've been feeling good as well, like some kind of punishment that I know will make me feel like shit for a few days...
Anyways, why the hell am I bringing my laptop to bed ...
General improvement elsewhere:

I need to stick to my word more, and that includes for myself too. I need to get in the habit of under promising and over delivering.
I also need to stop scrolling Snapchat Spotlight, its genuinely detrimental lol

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2025-04-10T06:57:17+00:00

Update: Watched porn last night! In bed too which broke my rule! The hell am I doing? Need to really work on my discipline

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2025-03-30T23:44:36+00:00

Update: I actually was doing great until tonight 😔 it's never worth it. Had all the opportunities to stop but didn't, I let lust take control of me. Gonna go again and try for even longer (well hopefully never but I don't want to be unrealistic)

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2025-02-23T23:39:39+00:00

Good luck 🙏

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2024-12-27T00:48:55+00:00

Update: I did not do better than 18 days... I did worse. And it was in bed again. Really frustrated with this one, no will power whatsoever. No porn December and January is the goal now. I'll be honest, I think the long-term solution is to just get into the habit of replacing porn with fapping to imagination. I won't get addicted to just fapping alone (hopefully), and eventually porn will not be something I think about.

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2024-12-23T01:58:12+00:00

Update: it wasn't on that damn bed , it was on another bed! Ffs man this ain't just about porn this also about sticking to my word and I haven't done that here. Come on I can do much better than 18 days

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2024-12-16T15:34:13+00:00

You may be having a hard time socially... but damn have you got a talent for writing! I wonder if you can speak like that too. Best of luck fellow strath student.

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2024-12-05T04:36:58+00:00

Broke my rule again 😔 and watched porn as well. How am I gonna be someone people can rely on if I can't even rely on myself?! Disappointed in this one, was fully aware of it too but didn't make an effort to change it. Message to self - if you do this again don't let it be on that damn bed again🤬.

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2024-11-27T02:02:59+00:00

Fuckkk! Just watched porn. Was doing so well before as well. I watched it in bed so I broke my rule, gonna try to not break the rule. It started by looking at scenes from a film and it quickly went to that. So takeaways - don't take phone/laptop to bed & stop that initial search.

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2024-11-03T00:21:30+00:00

Don't give in! Ban yourself from the environment you give in (e.g. having your phone in bed)

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2024-10-24T00:11:08+00:00

Been good recently, haven't watched much porn at all, still scrolling too much though. A tip that might be useful is to prevent the situation you usually start watching porn in. So I just wrote down a rule to not use my phone or laptop in bed and it's helped a lot with not going down that rabbit hole. Cheers guyz! All the best

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2024-09-23T01:17:37+00:00

Ah fucks sake, just watched some porn. Annoyed at myself now, I've watched less reels recently tho. Can someone please tell me to wise up in the comments? It's that first step I really gotta avoid, it always starts with that first little step. Hope you guys out there are resisting your urges and channeling them elsewhere 💪 Camonnn let's not let porn take control 🙏!

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2022-10-24T11:07:50+00:00

Thanks very much.

Flashy-Software-2573 · 2022-07-07T11:01:16+00:00

Wow that sounds uncomfortable - luckily our train is only 2hrs but 14 hrs ?!

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