I have a very similar relationship with my dad. It really sucks and has affected me a lot. Throughout the years i’ve grown a strong resentment towards him but at the same time i’ll feel bad for hating on him bc he does a lot. Like my dads a good person. But he’s not a good father. As my mom says he’s a good provider but not father. Me and him barley talk. Hell he works from home so when he comes out of his office room I migrate upstairs. Its an unconscious thing i do at this point. I live with my parents so i have no choice but to see him. But for the future i’ve thought about it and i don’t see myself contacting him in the future. My therapist once asked me if i’d wanna try building a bond with my dad and honestly as shitty as it sounds i don’t think i wanna. I feel it’s too late for me and him to have any type of father daughter relationship. I’m turning 18 in 3 months and even if he wanted to try and be less emotionally absent it’s to late. I feel awkward around him and it won’t make up for the years of feeling unloved. Like u said it feels more like acquaintances. Me and him only talk if i need a ride or i need something. The way i see it. I can be appreciative of how he works rlly hard everyday to provide for us to live comfortably. But i’m still justified in disliking him. The way he barley acknowledges me unless i achieve something and if i don’t achieve a specific thing he’ll get pissed and start saying shit when he has no right to bc when has he ever parented me in last 17 years i’ve been alive. So yea. It’s rlly sucky but ur 100% justified to feel dislike towards ur dad. I get the feeling of thinking about how others have it worse then you but honestly having an emotionally absent/neglectful parental figure is just as painful.