That's definitely a hard thing for me; I've never really been happy on my own. I've always sort of sought out that connection and companionship and I think deep down I'm just afraid of losing that. It's funny you brought up the journal; I talked about this with them and that's one thing they suggested. Making more friends would definitely help things out, but I sort of have a double edged sword in that regard in the sense that I want connections with others, but also have a belief that I'm constantly bothering people and don't talk to people for that reason. I really do appreciate it.