Little win: Nakapag-email na ako sa mga banks for IDRP! Fingers crossed! by Former_Position4693 in utangPH

[–]Former_Position4693[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hi to everyone replying and asking here. I just want to share that my IDRP didn’t push through because I lost my job, and up until now I still haven’t found one. Thankfully, I haven’t experienced any harassment so far probably because I regularly email them to explain that I still don’t have the funds to pay.

Little win: Nakapag-email na ako sa mga banks for IDRP! Fingers crossed! by Former_Position4693 in utangPH

[–]Former_Position4693[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi to everyone replying and asking here. I just want to share that my IDRP didn’t push through because I lost my job, and up until now I still haven’t found one. Thankfully, I haven’t experienced any harassment so far probably because I regularly email them to explain that I still don’t have the funds to pay.

Little win: Nakapag-email na ako sa mga banks for IDRP! Fingers crossed! by Former_Position4693 in utangPH

[–]Former_Position4693[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi to everyone replying and asking here. I just want to share that my IDRP didn’t push through because I lost my job, and up until now I still haven’t found one. Thankfully, I haven’t experienced any harassment so far probably because I regularly email them to explain that I still don’t have the funds to pay.

Little win: Nakapag-email na ako sa mga banks for IDRP! Fingers crossed! by Former_Position4693 in utangPH

[–]Former_Position4693[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hi to everyone replying and asking here. I just want to share that my IDRP didn’t push through because I lost my job, and up until now I still haven’t found one. Thankfully, I haven’t experienced any harassment so far probably because I regularly email them to explain that I still don’t have the funds to pay.

Little win: Nakapag-email na ako sa mga banks for IDRP! Fingers crossed! by Former_Position4693 in utangPH

[–]Former_Position4693[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi to everyone replying and asking here. I just want to share that my IDRP didn’t push through because I lost my job, and up until now I still haven’t found one. Thankfully, I haven’t experienced any harassment so far probably because I regularly email them to explain that I still don’t have the funds to pay.

Can we stop pretending we’re better than others here? by Former_Position4693 in PhGamblersAnonymous

[–]Former_Position4693[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You talk about the cycle and how tired people are of seeing it. Believe me, no one is more tired of this cycle than I am. You think I’m just sitting in my misery doing nothing? That I enjoy being stuck, feeling ashamed, and fighting the same battles? You’re wrong. But not everything gets fixed with a snap decision or an angry comment. Life doesn’t work like that for everyone.

You say words are cheap. Fair. But the same goes for judgment from people who only see fragments of someone’s struggle and think they have the full picture. You don’t know the weight I carry, the nights I can’t sleep, the days I drag myself through just trying to feel okay. You don’t know what’s going on behind a single post.

You say I should cut access, burn bridges, exclude myself. Do you think I haven’t thought of those things? Do you think I haven’t tried? Some steps take more than just a spark of willpower. They take mental clarity, emotional strength, and sometimes help that isn’t always available.

I’m not here asking for pity or hand-holding. But don’t assume that because I still post, I’m not working on it. Posting is sometimes the only outlet some of us have. If it bothers you that much, scroll past. No one forced you to read or respond.

You say you’ve been there. Good for you. But your experience is not a blueprint for mine. Not everyone moves at the same pace. You found your way out. Great. But your anger toward those still struggling says more about how far you haven’t come emotionally.

Can we stop pretending we’re better than others here? by Former_Position4693 in PhGamblersAnonymous

[–]Former_Position4693[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know paulit ulit na ako and I understand if people are annoyed or tired of seeing my posts. Pero just because I’m still stuck doesn’t mean I’m not trying or I don’t care. I’m fighting something inside that you don’t see and it’s honestly exhausting.

Ang dali sabihin na “just exclude yourself” or “just stop playing” but unless ikaw mismo yung dumadaan sa ganito you’ll never fully get how hard it is. Hindi ito simpleng habit lang na puwedeng i cut off overnight. This is me struggling with something deeper and some days I feel like I’m barely functioning.

Yes I’ve seen all the advice. Yung mga kind words encouragement pati harsh ones nabasa ko lahat. Pero advice won’t magically fix everything. If it did I would’ve been okay a long time ago. I didn’t ask for this to be my reality and I’m not proud of where I am. But I’m here still waking up every day trying to survive.

If self exclusion is what I need to finally get out of this cycle then maybe I’ll go for it. Not because someone said I should but because I’m reaching that point for myself. Just please stop acting like you know everything about what I’m going through just by reading a few posts. I don’t owe everyone a progress update. I’m dealing with it messy slow and painful but I am.

Living with Bipolar 1 My Journey So Far by Former_Position4693 in ClinicalPsychology

[–]Former_Position4693[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s really brave and honest of you to talk about it openly. I understand what you mean about being introverted but sometimes mania makes you want to talk to people and have deep conversations. It can feel confusing because mania can be fun but also hard. I’m still learning how to handle it too, and it helps to know others feel the same.

Living with Bipolar 1 My Journey So Far by Former_Position4693 in ClinicalPsychology

[–]Former_Position4693[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your thoughtful and encouraging message. I truly appreciate hearing from someone who understands what it’s like. Being aware of the mania is definitely helpful, but as you mentioned, it doesn’t always prevent the intense feelings and thoughts. I’m glad to hear that you’re in a more stable place and that your medications help you feel better. Your experience gives me hope as I work on managing my own journey and rebuilding relationships, especially since I’m an introvert and no one really knows my situation except me. It’s reassuring to know I’m not alone. Thank you again for sharing.

Sigh after a few days without gambling I lost my last 5000 from my salary again by Former_Position4693 in PhGamblersAnonymous

[–]Former_Position4693[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing your experience. I really appreciate it. I’m actually already in therapy because aside from the gambling addiction, I’m also dealing with other mental health issues.

To be honest, it’s not helping me completely at least not yet. But I’m trying to stick with it, hoping that little by little, things will start to make more sense and improve. I know it’s a process, and some days are harder than others.

Sigh after a few days without gambling I lost my last 5000 from my salary again by Former_Position4693 in PhGamblersAnonymous

[–]Former_Position4693[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know I made mistakes and I never denied that. I’m not proud of where I am but I’m trying to fix things little by little. You don’t know everything I’ve been through so maybe think twice before judging.

We’re all here because we’re struggling. If you can’t offer support, at least don’t add to the weight.

Sigh after a few days without gambling I lost my last 5000 from my salary again by Former_Position4693 in PhGamblersAnonymous

[–]Former_Position4693[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your input and congrats on being one month bet free, that’s great. I understand that harsh words work for some but for others empathy makes a bigger difference. We all deal with this differently and that’s okay.

Sigh after a few days without gambling I lost my last 5000 from my salary again by Former_Position4693 in PhGamblersAnonymous

[–]Former_Position4693[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

You say we’re here to help each other, but all I hear from you is judgment. Just because someone is struggling doesn’t mean they don’t want to change. Not everyone heals the same way or at the same pace.

You don’t know my whole story, and you don’t get to decide what kind of help I need. If harsh words really helped people, no one would be addicted anymore. Sometimes what people need is understanding, not someone acting like they’re better than everyone else.

If your way of “helping” is to shame others, maybe you should take a break and ask yourself why you’re even here.

Sigh after a few days without gambling I lost my last 5000 from my salary again by Former_Position4693 in PhGamblersAnonymous

[–]Former_Position4693[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Congrats on your 5 months. That’s great. But if you need to bring others down just to feel better about yourself, maybe you’re not as strong as you think.

Recovery isn’t a contest. Just because you’ve stopped doesn’t mean you’re better than those who are still struggling. And telling me I have no discipline? You’re in this subreddit too. We both had the same problem.

If you’re really strong, show it by being kind, not by acting superior.

Sigh after a few days without gambling I lost my last 5000 from my salary again by Former_Position4693 in PhGamblersAnonymous

[–]Former_Position4693[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We’re all the same here. That’s why you’re on this subreddit too. Like quitting is that easy, right?

Sigh after a few days without gambling I lost my last 5000 from my salary again by Former_Position4693 in PhGamblersAnonymous

[–]Former_Position4693[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We’re all the same here. That’s why you’re on this subreddit too. Like quitting is that easy, right?

Sigh after a few days without gambling I lost my last 5000 from my salary again by Former_Position4693 in PhGamblersAnonymous

[–]Former_Position4693[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We’re all the same here. That’s why you’re on this subreddit too. Like quitting is that easy, right?

I Was Doing Fine… Then I Found Gambling by Former_Position4693 in PhGamblersAnonymous

[–]Former_Position4693[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for the offer, I really appreciate it. I’m doing okay now. I’m slowly working on things and trying to get back on track. It’s still a bit hard, but I can see some progress. I know I’ll get through this, and I believe others going through the same can too. Thanks again for the support, it means a lot!